13. She Isn't Real

Personal/Ideals

This is for and came from a skydive into my heart's inner heart... I had not been writing one since last year and suddenly I came up with this. This is also for the heart I once had.. or maybe didn't have.

SHE
She may not have a beautiful body,
But she has beautiful eyes,
She may act and look horny,
But she is really damn nice,
She may not be fat,
She may not be thin,
She may not be the best I've met,
But in my heart, she will always win.
She may not be enough sweet,
But her smile to me is enough to kill,
Her lips make me weak,
Her touch made me kneel,
Her hair heats me up,
Her smell helps me to sleep,
Well, she's one of you;
One of the very few
I would keep in view...

I thought of the words while eating in a restaurant with my family because I scoped a girl who I thought have looks good... and sexy with nice eyes. So I started rhyming my words up to describe someone. This is dedicated to you, and all the beautiful ladies around the world(be it you reader's girlfriend or wife or your mum, not forgetting your sister). Yes, please do kindly write your comment. It so happened that this piece is a bit similar to the titlesake song She by Elvis Costello. Cheers.

....

I think this girl(picture below) is sweet(and cute). huh, my taste is very awkward, i know. Her name is Natalie( and I think she's a lot younger than me, maybe...). No, it's just an advertisement for Maxis. She can be spotted up in the giant advertisement billboard at Scotland Road, Penang(if you are heading towards the horse race course from Green Lane by the Masjid Negeri overhead bridge, look to the back; if you are on the opposite side of the lane heading towards Green Lane then just move your head or eyes to the right; for people who can't multi-task well like me please be careful of the accident that may occur as mentioned in my BOOBy Trap post).

(copyright of Maxis)

(Crazzzzy). I got nothing else better to do.

[Song content thievery for post title from Vermillion pt1 & 2 by Slipknot and content from For The Heart I Once Had by Nightwish]

12.5 A Trip to Hell & Void~The World is Black

Personal/Ideals

Warning: Read at your own risk. Contains psychological elements.

A new nightmare surfaced. Again, these weird dreams often came to me when I slept in my grandfather's room(he'd passed away 5 years ago) or on the sofa in the living room. This morning I slept on the sofa. And this so-called nightmare landed a great impact in my thoughts. It touches on relationship especially friendship and attachments. You can read on for leisure or believe me I had it in my brain after waking up. Start; our country is facing a problem. A population control problem. So, the government implemented this ruling or system to lower down the number of people. It's not like the China's one child per family ruling. It's the perishing of a number of people currently living. It's some sort of National Service selection process. If you are "lucky" you got shortlisted to, well end your life and help mankind. Absurd. I was weeping and holding back all my tears in my dream(for all I can remember) because a few of my friends are named and going to be put to sleep in the death sentence execution process where the person is given a lethal injection.

Ah, I can't contained the deep agony I felt in my heart at that moment when I see everybody congregating into the building to see their loved ones given free legal ticket to heaven. The feeling of going to have your best friends dying so soon, that's just way too hard for a teenager like me and what more, they are your friends who you just knew not more than 10 years and have bonded as good acquaintances and activity partners. Yes, the people in my dream do exist in this reality so imagine them being sent off now for that reason. My real close friends. I was very upset on how could the world be so cruel sending us teenagers to death to regulate the margin of our country's population. You see, I have this principle in me which is strongly against taking away others' lives because we have no right to do that even if vengeance takes place unto us(I am believer to Gandhi's words, "An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind"). So what to do if we have no power and we couldn't stand up strong. We watch and cry.

My point here is, when I am face-to-face to that situation the whole world seems to suddenly lose its foundation and everything falls onto your heart, heavy and asphyxiating. I have this very awful emotion in the dream. But I told myself soon let's face it with tough cardiac and facial mucle tissues, it's gonna happen anyway. A fate. A mere significant heart-filled coercing of life's flow. Then, I went to visit one of my friends(I don't have to name them-what a touchwood tragedy). He's on the bed beside is a screen showing the process of injection progress and his pulse rate. Hearts start to sank as the heartbeat rate starts to retard. Our last conversation. It's not like in the movies(because I don't have much emotion while watching). Of course I could dream of feeling like this because I've had experience watching my grandfather going up the stairway to heaven, watching family members being sad for the deceased and, collecting all my fishes which succumbed to death. And I can't remember if I have seen him the moment he stopped breathing. My heart at that moment is beyond recognition.. the inner point I am going to write about is attachment. It's very hard to let go, of anything. Like, a friend suddenly dies and you haven't got the chance to talk to him/her or tell him/her you have a heart for him/her or at least but really last, a goodbye. Even in normal circumstance when a friend didn't die and I didn't get to tell him/her goodbye I'd have already felt sad. There's another scene where I called a girl(friend) to tell her I wanna meet her and say goodbye but I was interrupted by my gang(I'm somewhat a bad-ass gangster member) as I am ordered to wreck havoc in one of the wards where the girl I wanted to meet is at. And then I woke up. Everything was just a dream. Glad.

So cherish your life as Elvis Stojko quoted as saying, "The past is history, the future is a mystery but today is a gift, that's why they call it the present so cherish every minute of it". You don't have to go confessing to all girls that you liked them before it's too late, I mean that's weird and dumb but just appreciate their presence in your life which makes you happy so you don't regret if anything out of the questions happen. And I just read this story article written by a survivor of the Khmer Rouge terrorism in this year's Reader's Digest June issue. Sokreaksa S. Himm wrote, "All I wished for at that moment was to tell my mother how much I loved her. I wished I we had been able to say goodbye. At the same time, my heart burned with rage." That was when he was witnessing his mother being clubbed to death by the Khmer Rouge agents. Just for your information, he met and forgave the murderers 25 years after he escaped from his village. So, that's the intense funereal emotion.

That's it, plenty of digression and fully "grandfather story"(muaha u know who u r who described my posts with) equipped lines. Stressful flow of life it is we're living in...

[Song title thievery from The World Is Black by Good Charlotte]

12. A Trip to Hell & Void

Stress-talk/Ideals/Personal

Greetings, here is a post came straight from my dream. No source of inspiration but only source of stress, horror and joy. I uploaded therewith new songs which I hope you will leave my page on for some time to listen to them. No, I do not earn money from you staying any longer here or any frequent visits.

And...wth, Scott Weiland left Velvet Revolver. I haven't even got the latest Libertad album yet... it's sad and in another way maybe shedding some light, they could just find somebody more concrete in the vocals. Taking up Sebastian Bach may relive Guns N' Roses' style huh. Buckcherry vocalist? Here is a link to the news: http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1584599/20080401/velvet_revolver.jhtml. Anyway, why were vocalists always the main issue when band disbands, someone left the band or someone is fired. The same kind of thing happened to Guns N' Roses and Nightwish(can read the fire letter here: http://www.brokenteeth.com/snitz/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=270 but LimpBizkit is a little different, Wes who was the guitarist left himself but already returned.

A Feat. I finished a game. Samurai Legend Musashi. My gameplay time is 38 hours. My brother did it 21 hours. So you know not a skilful gamer I am. Embarked on a new game, Tom Clancy's Ghost Recon: Advanced Warfighter. Sucks a bit on PS2 because of its control-like Counter Strike-I would do very good if playing it on a computer with mouse. I played the game for 2 hours non-stop and developed headache and some sort of nauseous feeling. Ok, some say it's vomit-inducing to watch Cloverfield so I guess this has the same cause. The camera keeps moving up, down, left, right, strafe left, right, shoot, being shot, demo, being demo and ordering a partner around, helping out the reconnaissance and engage on a special tactic combat. At the end of a mission, a report will be given on how many killed, how many killed stealthily how accurate my shooting is and thus awarding points.

On one night before he was tricked into clicking a porn website link by a friend, Mr. Woon Wei Tong a.k.a Old Man, my former form 5 Cekal assistant class monitor a.k.a the monitor gave me a youtube link to a 25 minutes long video of Pangea Day. Inspiring, yes I like global peace messages even though I am all-talk-no-cock peace activist. So, I prepared a draft for a post on Pangea. Not ready.

Content Warning: Read on only if you are not perfectly sane or not having the perspective of life in the greatest and most positive majority would think in some ways proven by surveys. Writings ahead may cause emotional disturbances and may mentally stick some bad perception of me onto or the minority involved. Read at your own risk. I beg you just read it for leisure.

Part I
SO, I'll get to the intended post title point. Hell to dream world means nightmare. I dedicate this to my brain. Nightmares. Do you have nightmares? Do you wake up from a nightmare like in the TV-wake up gasping for 21% air content of oxygen and cold sweating? Or do you wake up dead? Nobody knows about wake up dead huh.. I wouldn't like it if you come telling me how it feels like waking up dead unless you're a successful resurrection(not undead). Or actually, have you been to hell and back? Nobody has ever come back to Mother Earth to tell the experience in hell(don't count medium's god conversation in trance). So I give a fresh definition of hell, in a nightmare. A nightmare can be defined as a bad dream or a bad experience. We always view hell as fiery with devils whipping(why is the fire element portrayed in hell?). And sometimes going through a tough time can make you say, "It's hell being in a relationship with her". So the term hell here is something real negative in most perspectives or grueling or scary. Alright, straight to the world of dreams and nightmare a.k.a hell.

I once read a malay folklore about not washing the feet before sleeping will induce nightmare. For my case, I don't know... maybe I forgot to brush my teeth or just a tiny food particle still stuck in a tiny crevice. Even just 10 minutes will have me dreaming of something whether it's good or bad, there was once I dreamt of talking to my crush in my 20 minutes nap. I usually wake up sweating because of the Malaysia climate and weather.

And what are nightmares trying to tell us? Our fears. Our nemesis, I'd say. Let's take for an example, you used to like to scope a girl so in a "nightmare" you would be caught for scoping girls. Dreams are our subconscious lives. What we want, what we don't what or what happens, what happened and what's going to happen. So dreams deal with our sleeping conscience. We could slip too, that's what usually happens when you fall in a dream, you ended up falling from bed or kicking your leg or make a sudden jerking movement in a midst of your sleep. In Hokkien, we call it, "pa toh longkang". I always have it when I sleep in the car. I heard from people saying according to their own theory or some scientific fact, usually falling from the sky or drowning in dreams are result of the body lapsing into a state of rest where it does not feel so much anymore on the bed. So, imagine your nerves tell you that you are lying straight floating with no support underneath you. You will in reflex action quickly struggle or go panic like drowning trying to reach for something. Get the idea? Falling from the sky, how nice. I've had jumping off building dreams quite a number of times. Landing means waking up from sleep for sure. I don't wake up dead, I just went to hell and back. haah

Let me just elaborate or briefly tell you what I had in a nightmare last week. I made a inference that my nightmare was caused by playing a first-person shooting game with horrible looking creature enemies and bloodshed, Serious Sam 2 with Jon and Hooi. And my Editorial Board juniors not doing well in their duties. Here, the outline of my hell: Ugly mutations of monkeys gone wild on our Earth. They can talk. They are result of uncontrolled interspecies mating spree. There is one species(I even remember the name given in my nightmare) called the Neighing Monkey. It has insect eyes, no mouth and make horse sounds plus they attack viciously on humans. Another type can talk and they practically live on my grandfather's rambutan tree. wth. Speaking and threatening me in my own home compound. Another scene was in a courthouse in a a big building. There, my EdBod juniors gave in to a hearing for some case. I was so f* furious on why they just walk away like that cause the whole team to lose. Outside the building you have that kind of Cloverfield monster's attacking environment. Then, I went back to my house and saw my crush and her friend in my keyboard room doing their homework. wth. I have countless dreams of having her in my house so no surprise. That just explains my longing for her.

[The Scream by artist Edvard Munch]

The whole thing explains my eccentricity?? in dreaming. No, brainsick maybe.. or demented. Normal case, a sick person will tell you he's ok but in reality maybe he's not.

Part II

That's for what happened and what happens. What about what is going to happen? Is it still based on what we experience in life? I mean, we predict in life? Or being clairvoyant. Or omen. I would say omen. I have something which I finally want to share in public. Maybe(hopefully) if you have such encounter you would feel not lonely and might want to share with me, which I also think it's plausible... you guys are not as "crazy" as me. I have these scary nerve-wrecking omen telling dreams. And, it is so true that I fear I dream of that omen and because it signifies death. I'm sorry I am writing on deaths now. You know Harry Potter, the black dog symbol signifies death. Yeah, it's the exact same thing in my nightmares and dreams. No, it can't be resolved to watching too much cartoons, movies or read too much fantasy books. It's so hell f* coincidental. Maybe I dreamt of that thing but I didn't receive any news it may just had happened to other people other place not related to me.

This happens in 2004. A series of events chained and foretold in a world of fantasy. But ended in a disturbing and unpleasant horridness. A trepidation worth not remembering. 1st encounter: I dreamt of this big rottweiler(dog) the size of an adult bear. It was chasing me and two other friends. In the end we gone our own separate ways so the creature couldn't get us all at once. I met my father and fled in the car. OK, back to reality. Next day, I received a phone call. My uncle passed away. Of course I didn't know of the link back then. And then found out that one friend who was in my dream too, broke his toes. Another friend, bought a mask. This connection is a little bit funny but I just take them into account so it would be more interesting and not just the gloom of my uncle's untimely death.

That was the first. Of course(again) every time after I had a dream of the black creature I don't go thinking myself the creeps of knowing that someone is going to die. I just got this conclusion after several brain "storming" and "digging" to connect the events. As I can remember, the omen came to me for the deaths of my great grand aunt(or is it grand aunt), stepgrandmother and....hopefully that's all... Basically, that's all about nightmares I would like to write on about.

Furthermore, a lot of my dreams actually foretell certain desire achievements. You know, I've always wanted to own an electric guitar and I always dreamt of my friends having them but never myself. Yeah, I still don't have one. I did actually dreamt of me playing one once, maybe it's not mine and hell, the guitar that appeared in my dream was exactly the guitar I drew on my exam question paper based on a real guitar. Cheers to dreams and nightmares. A toast to Morpheus, God of Dreams. I did a personality test somewhere in the net, and the result shows that I am more like Morpheus. So that's it, I'm a avid daydreamer after all...

XD

"I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die." says the Lord - John Chapter 11, Verse 25 - 26

I came across this excerpt in the newspaper and I find it amusing. I feel power and godly reading it. hah. There is a hidden meaning behind my words... so read between the lines.

I can prove that God exists almost everywhere or He can be anywhere.
1. When you enter a cubicle you saw the toilet unflushed with floating objects, you say "OMG, uwekk... wth broken flush."
2. When you walk your car and search for your keys you say "OMG, where's my keys?"
3. After you bathed at the public shower room you say, "Omg wth someone stole my clothes!"
4. As you look through the school exam questions you whisper, "oh god, I didn't study."
Whole lot more of everyday life incidents where you apply the term 'God' you will come across it. haha Isn't it true?

haah Just yesterday I forgot to bring my towel into the bathroom I have to resort to walking out naked and dripping wet. I didn't say OMG, I uttered a loud "SH*T". That's it. Cheers.

6.5. Kerachut

Friends & Family

Happy Wesak Day on May 19 to all the Buddhists, Buddhism followers and those who derived principles and practises from Buddha's teachings. Om, may Peace be unto all. May there be less stress in our lives.

Ok. By request from my girlfriend, I was called to post up the photos. No videos.
Click it!

That's all, folks.
YW has his point of view too. Here.

11. A Touch, A Toast, A Tribute

Ideals

This is a tribute to the music scenes, entertainers, pioneers, metalheads, rockers and all the fans out there who made headbanging sounds cool and feels even better if you do it.

Look back into the music videos or live footages from the modern era of 90s' scene until maybe only the beginning of the 2nd millennium then you will know what I would like to highlight here at this moment. Those were the times you see people wearing gas masks to protect from tear gas, riots happening during or after concerts and the venues guarded by policemen. And yeah before the 90s', you see guitarists smoking while shredding and vocalist stage-dive to punch a fan only to halt the show which led to a massive riot(you know who did this, particularly at St. Louis.). Those were also the times where you still enjoy seeing drum set crashings, guitar smashings and puking while you fight your way out of the mosh pit. And music way back then did not bother or cared if they would offend any fan(fans love to strip and rather leave the show on a stretcher than walk out unstained by blood) or fear any governmental/political issue setbacks. Renegades they are through music(I have earlier posted a video by Rage Against The Machine and there's an update to the info, also a related post). These are real entertainment. Something amusing. Not for the faint-hearted. Not for marketing(though they get media attention but at least they are shocking and unique news unlike pop celebrity sex scandals, those are mere global mainstream prostitution in disguise haah).

Not just rock, hip-hop and funk or electronica-esque and etc. etc. What do I see hip-hop and R&B in the radio and TV these days? Bling-blings, Lamborghinis, hot bikini-clad black girls and big bungalows... Hip-hop in those times did not bling(maybe because video quality was grainy), no they didn't have to show off their gold ornaments, they usually show their suburban lifestyle or how they grew up with animosity it's about the music. Yeah whole lotta white boys in the hip-hop rap too or collaborate with the blacks too. Mainstream ones which I know of are Eminem and Beastie Boys. Yeah, take Buckethead with Praxis. Funk off dudes and babes...

hmm...what about hairbands? Glam rock... theatrical acts. You know Motley Crue, the only hairband I know if you know others do recommend me.
Here, http://new.music.yahoo.com/blogs/listoftheday/32122/the-25-best-hair-metal-bands is a site with 25 examples, thanks Hooi. Eye-opener. If you don't know, hairbands are those rockers who spot super cool big standing fluffy long colourful plus makeups and flashy balls-spanking spandex(when stretched and released) outfits. So they make the glam rock too, glamourous. Ye-Wheen, I can still remember the way you describe and told us about X-Japan's Toshi's hairstyle in their earlier days. They are sexy you know for straight guys. In the west, I don't know of anyone who still come out beautiful. But in Japan, I know they are still hot and they fall under the category of visual-kei usually in Jrock genre. You know what, Ye-Wheen, Hooi, Meng Jon, Jonathan and Khang Yang, we would make a great hairband. You see, we are all very particular about our hairstyles, "waa YW's hair so cute," "waa Jona's hair so gay or malay rock," "waa Jon's hair so goodboy" "waa Hooi's hair like gangster or Kyo," "waa KY's hair so wth". ah...those days when we all used to come to school spotting new hairstyles thinking that we were "cool" only to be laughed out loud at because the barber/hairstylist was drunk. ah, the stress we had trying so hard to get our hair right.

And if you know Wayne of Static-X, he's one guy I can spot with a special hairstyle and they say he's vegetarian. Almost like black metal but I doubt they were or maybe.
Those who like vampire in Twilight may like vampires in this video. Static-X - Cold. Hey, Aaliyah(R.I.P) is featured in this video(OST for Queen of The Damned). And Jonathan Davis of Korn is the producer. Wouh, I just found out how good the Queen Of The Damned soundtrack is, I recommend it.



There's one pop genre I like which is what some described as 'Death Pop'. Sounds great for a pop genre and the band whom they described is Orgy. Go check them out if you are curious on how they sound like.

Anyway, I've only wanted to post some photos of this particular band from Iowa but somehow today's mind block just happened to automatically remove itself after finding them in Last.fm website. The other photos are also from there. Here I present you Slipnot. "Hooi, Ye-Wheen, Quan Yu...embrace Slipknot" my sermon way back in 2004. Quan Yu said, "cool masks but sorry not my type, i still want to kill the science teacher a.k.a The Queen". Hooi and YW said, "Yes, master...". Jon, the benchwarmer says, "no thanks my style is Man Bai - Kau Ilhamku". LTMAC
Look, they are way too cool. 9 piece headbangers. Corey's roar does not sound like the 1st two albums anymore, sing too much ballad I guess but we will, yes we will patiently wait for highly-anticipated 4th album. Click it!
oh(20 minutes later) I found this out. Look at the last collage, that's the first splash teaser picture for their latest album. Taken from wikipedia, also, Joey says, "It's going to be heavy as f*ck! It's going to be heavier than 'Vol. 3...' but just as weird and as experimental, " and Corey says "It's going to rip your face off...I don't think the world will be ready for this album," and stated this album's lyrics will be less about his life and more, "bitching about what's wrong in life...". Get ready, people... for all we know people=shit. haah

Post-script: Don't abandon Marilyn Manson! Don't leave him alone. He needs to be heard.
And this song, Ozzy Osbourne - Gets Me Through to wash away your misconception.


ah, fellow rocker guys... we just have to really go to these rock scenes in big stadiums one day. We missed it for over 20 years already. Walk on home, boy.

Keep On Rockin'...

[Song title thievery from Slipknot - People=Shit, Pantera's Walk and Neil Young's Keep On Rockin' In The Free World]

May 16 of 2008 also celebrates my first time not celebrating Teachers' Day in school with teachers after 12 grueling years of schooling. The first being my 2nd year in kindergarten as a 6 year old. Then the last be Form 5 last year. Time flies and another two years I will hit two decades... and I haven't been posting on something more productive heh.. nevermind, there are 2 blastocysts still in drafts, kicking in soon.

10. Tarantula Terror Tobacco Teeth

Personal

May 11th - Dental Appointment

waa... It's been a while since I suffered the stress of very tender painful biting impact on the teeth only to hear the doctor says, "put rubber bands" then I knew that I would feel that agony again. I couldn't open my mouth wide. I can't yawn with my mouth opened big. I can't shout nor wail. I can't cough properly. I can't do any job which requires my mouth to open big enough for something to enter, even sticking my tongue out to lick or wet my lips is hindered. Darn rubber bands. But it's replaceable, when brushing or eating. Its function, to ....bla bla bla...I can't remember what the very short skirt clad nurse said because I was looking at my brand new look of teeth. Some kind of physics applied to put tension in different directions on the teeth to get a resultant force which will be the direction the teeth moving to. oh puck! I just sneezed and it fraeking HURTS!!! Imagine someone punching your teeth from the inside out while you grit your teeth hard. I self-proclaim this as "body jewellery" or "extreme body modification" as featured in The Startwo pg2. hehe

This could be the very future Saw X movie's pin up... (beware: original size of photo is extreme-might induce nightmare)
Imagine all the hooked teeth would snap to pull out everything out of their place after the timer goes off...

9. Future Kaleidoscope

Personal/Friends & family

hey MIAT member, this is dedicated to you and all the peeps studying there.

May 8th - The KL Day
I followed Jonathan down to Kuala Lumpur with his parents. The objectives are to fetch his sister back from UKM and pay a visit to Universiti Kuala Lumpur Malaysian Institute of Aviation Technology(UniKL MIAT).

Unfortunately, I went with not so good body condition which I didn't feel good about because my coughing would spread germs for the 5 hour long journey in the car and back another 5 hours. So a total 10 hours of germs congested the car with the father, mother and Jonathan and 5 hours only for his sister. I refused to see doctor u know...want to see how independent I am to doctors... but sigh, never mind, don't make mummy cry worry-go see doctor lo today. As expected and usual, inflamed and swollen throat and tonsils. Antibiotic-ANS

Halt, before I go on... let me just wish all mothers(healthy, single, teenage, old, young, pregnant, sick, unmarried etc; as long as you've taken care of a child like a mother) HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. I am proud to say that I bought a heart-shaped donut for my mum... buying gifts is something i rarely do, not because I don't appreciate people but I couldn't think of what to do to return favours. I fear I die not lightening up hearts.

This place is 15km northeast of KLIA. It is also around maybe 15-20km from Kajang, the nearest busy town area. It's in Dengkil district in Selangor. Ulu, you would say. Surrounded by lush forests of oil palms. Nuclear and Atom research centres on the way there. It took around 15 minutes to drive out from this place with perfect no slowing down traffic. No lamp posts. No reflectors. Imagine driving at night, so I name the place the ulu twilight. Interesting, I saw a banner promoting an entertainment centre with jamming studio with a direction. But that direction points to a small road down the barren grassland and cross a river and into the forest. I guess we can jam Guns N' Roses' Welcome To The Jungle song there.

I have nothing much to elaborate about that place though it's a nice place. I am. I am going to study there. I will have Mr. Jonathan Lim as a friend there who is also a part-time HG(tahu-tahulah apa makna di sebalik perkataan ini) which is a good thing. Ok 15 seconds tribute to my friend here, I knew him since like 8 years ago in a school bus when I was the gang leader(HAHAHA I miss those times we used to throw packets of ice out of the bus and sharing laughs with the driver). Only to find him in a same class as me in 2003 for Form 1. Anyway, it's a really conducive location to study at. Clean. Unperturbed. No noise and air pollution. No entertainment outlets. Stress-free huh...

Here I go...the stairway to my dream(note, only at stairway). So long as my eyesight and height could take me to I would still be living with the Wright Brothers' inventions even if not soaring the sky with them. The road to aircraft maintenance engineering(AME)...

Wait, look at this first. MUAHAHA. My certificate for the Hikathon. Hooi, do you want my mum to get your name onto the certificate too?
Alright, I've made a collage of photos which I took with my camera during the trip there. I do think they are little boring. heh And here a bigger picture and another one.

Great... all my posts seem to look so long with such a small(shudn't complain) layout space for texts.

8. Inspiration

Ideals

With respect to Hooi's post on music.
What a serendipity... he posted on music then I got inspired to write something only to find out that Ye-Wheen wants to write about it too.

I am listening to Kevin Kern's Through The Arbor and Pastel Reflections from Hooi's blog. I recommend that you pay a weekly visit, at least to his blog to get jabs of different moods and styles of music using his music playing program. He will exhibit out-of-your-mind songs from time to time, surreal. This is a great way of enjoying music. Get different tastes from different people by sharing it through the net.

So, I will ramble on on the this title Inspiration. "Music. The best form of art, language, hobby that I have discovered in this word", quoted from Hooi. I would say music induces orgasm too. Especially sound barrier breaking guitar juicy solo. It's truly amazing how music evolves from 10000 BC to this very 2008 AD from Classical to Metal. Haah, let me write a little bit about that. You have Neo Classical if combine them huh, a really good one. In short, these two styles are still music. I don't care what the Mother Earth you want to brand Rock and Metal as noise. I think some modern mainstream pop songs are so much noisier than certain rock songs. But I do still respect you people who kinda put up with the Linkin Park "noise" I blasted through the speakers everyday a few years ago particularly, my family members who actually commended on some of the songs. See? Good music listeners have their say. No, not really good music but I mean music listeners who are good. In my opinion, noisy music is music which put all the technological synthesized from the studio digital audio mixing. There you have, modern mixing like the one you always hear in radio, salute to Limp Bizkit for critisizing radios. Like global crisis, combine acid rain and global warming. Yes, just like that, music, maybe, running out of notes or just plain dumb radio airing senseless music. Ok, I try not to criticise music too much, come on we music lovers should appreciate music right?

Well, yeah. Let us revel in the celebration for music evolution. Open up your mind, try not be over-sensitive and keep an ear on changes. I am sorry for the lala style, I just can't stand the overwhelming clonings of it. But never mind, we're all humans. Take for example, also thanks to Hooi who showed me this song, In My Life. It's a Beatles cover by Ozzy Osbourne. Hell yeah. A dark metal rockstar reproducing a timeless classic. Respect. I would love to see Mozart reincarnate playing Megadeth songs. No, not John Sebastian Bach with the song (Love Is) A Bitchslap [feat. Axl Rose] which I downloaded from Adelyn thinking that it's a Baroque piece. He's just the namesake hard rocker. SHARING MUSIC IS GOOD[thanks to Hooi, Ye-Wheen and Ade for sharing music. They are my top resources, not forgetting Torrentz] Mainstream or non-mainstream music, still music just segregated by the popular majority demand. I would love also to see Slipknot bombing the Grammy Awards stage. Maybe in the next 40 years we rock lovers will be an example of old men and women who headbang. We can't see much of that yet because music evolution is still under the test of time and soon new generations would show different interests. I ain't like hearing you rockers saying, "oh I am old already... should listen to slow songs". I want to see elders and white-haired wrinkled folks attending rock concerts.

So this is the problem, some music become well-known and some music obscure and unappreciated. Radio actually plays a vital part in spreading music. Playing the same old overrated songs just keep the independent scenes from being heard. But when a radio plays an entire full scale of local music or a a particular style, people don't appreciate and thus ostracizing that frequency. Another thing is the music stores, Tower Records(talking about Penang big stores) is alright, plenty of classic albums. But still, no Japanese Rock albums. In the Jap corner, I saw Rain(korean) and JJ Lin(chinese)... what is happening?

I have a problem now, stress of catching up with good music. Timeless, classical, modern or japanese... I am digging out old songs and at the same time coping with trying out new releases. Like Hooi said, will we have enough time to enjoy good music before the grave is dug for us? Yeah, so I am appreciating music, maybe in a different manner.

Music is a source of inspiration, obviously but maybe not to people who actually don't bother about music at all which I do believe they exist but come on, even the friend beside you who is yapping sounds like rapping and someone frying egg sounds like cymbals and keyboards . Music influences and leaves a pothole so you trip and fall only to aspire to wake up and reach for higher heights. And, music enjoying just gets better for me now. I don't know if it's because my itchy hands playing with the speaker equalizer boosting usually unheard melodies or did my brother change the sound card? Same old computer speakers which are almost 10 years old.

Spoiler to those who haven't watch the movie, Ironman. This movie is good or to say great is still an understatement, let's just put it as a commendable tour de force. Wait, not only the actions and story. The music. I am truly happy to watch a movie which plays rock songs, haha. The movie opens with Back In Black by AC/DC and ends with Ironman by Black Sabbath which are the songs I can recognize. Yes, there's a few song really good rock songs played through out the movie especially the one when Tony gets ready with the suit being fixed onto him.

Yeah, ya can see that I'm inclined towards classic rock/metal scenes but not-so-fortunately I was born after the 80s' revolutionizing into 90s' time so I am taking every effort(at least by downloading) to suck them into my soul as I still walk this Earth haah. Yes, Hooi I agree radio in the past plays awesome stuffs and whole lotta love for serious musicians who speak through their songs. A handful of new modern songs are good too la dun worry.

Let's put an end, the final. I end by saying, "For Those About To Rock, I salute you" but remember to persevere, for it's also a long way to the top. We rockers and want-to-bes(wannabes sound a bit offensive to me) are soldiers of the wasteland striving to be heard but you know what, I beg please don't go over-airing and over-publicizing good music in the radio. See what happened to Britney Spears. She used to inspire me. Christina Aguilera survived huh and hmm...what is happening to Hilary Duff. Nevertheless, I welcome you to listen to this, Rage Against The Machine - Renegades Of Funk, a cover song originally performed by Afrika Bambaataa & The Soul Sonic Force. Go get the lyrics to inspire you.

[Inspirations bled: Led Zeppelin - Ramble On, Dir En Grey - The Final, AC/CD - For Those About To Rock(We Salute You), AC/DC - It's A Long Way To The Top, Dragonforce - Soldiers Of The Wasteland, Led Zeppelin - Whole Lotta love]
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[Inspirations for this post: Bo Bice, Maroon 5, Galneryus, Ozzy Osbourne, Kevin Kern, Rage Against The Machine, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Marilyn Manson, Fort Minor, Daughtry, Disturbed, Apocalyptica, Moby, Neil Young, Lost Prophets, Slipknot, Steve Vai, Stratovarius, Slayer, Dave Mustaine, Nightwish, Ville Valo, Matt Sorum, Steve Tyler, some local Malaysian bands ringing in my head, Kelvyn Yeang, Iron Maiden, Slash, CM Jon, Ye-Wheen and last but not least Kang Chin Hooi]
"If you are 555 then I'm 666" ~Corey Taylor, Slipknot