Saturday 10 July 2010

92. Colours of Love

Ideals/Personal
This is again, love. Animal love. Inter-species love. Inter-color love. Definitely not your kind of love.
These animals do not have any faith. Nor any belief. At least they do not speak it out and brag about it like us humans. They do not come to us for refuge in need of a god. They just make good companies. I think I'm speaking of an example which is dogs. Others...they make good fried food or roasted.

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I actually really do not mind about colour and races at all. But you may see me hanging out only with a bunch of fair-skinned friends of Chinese ethnicity wherever. At least most of the time. Maybe there's some comfort. I am very sure of that which most of you people out there tend to stick to the group with similar tones. I know it's a very ignorant thing as pointed out by a foreigner friend who commented in Facebook.

Then I beg to differ for my part. I may be hypocritical at my choices of answers. But here I am to point it out the things I look for when joining activities and becoming friends. Or at least people who are worth to mix around with without discriminating superficial characteristics.

Who the hell cares..I mean I don't care, really. Of where you come from or what kind of family background. Just don't bring bombs and don't push drugs to me.

Well, let's start from day one of life. First, I was born and raised in Penang. Obviously, you can see more fair-skinned Chinese descendants around. But national statistics show the population number otherwise. Never mind that. And growing up in the vicinity with more Chinese friends and neighbours it's not unusual to mix around more with Chinese people especially in school. But come on, f* this. You cannot force a nation to deliberately cultivate 1M*sia by..what?..you wana see every group of people walking around having at least 1 Chinese, 1 Malay and 1 Indian?
Let it be natural. All the while it has been natural. Nevertheless it's a result of what colonialism had done to our country in the past. But past is not to be taken as blame. Learn.

So, in my schooling years I had never choose friends by skin. I have many kinds of friends. Malay or Indian. They are still people. Why do I only have that few friends from those races. It's because they are that few in my place. You don't expect me to dig and search for non-Chinese friends so I practise equality. Of friendship.

Now that I'm in MIAT, I can tell you I'm studying in a place of an opposite population number of schoolmates to what I had before in MIAT. What now, you want me to befriend and mix with the whole school to show that I am not racist? Jonathan is the only Chinese in my class. And yes the others are friends nevertheless.

I want to point out the similarity in the friends that I have by comparing now and then (Free School). Let's say I have 5 friends whom I mix around with in the old days - 4 Chinese 1 Indian. Let's compare with now with the same total of mixing - 4 Malay 1 Chinese. So what the hell.

Let me also point this out on why do I tend to only stick to certain groups especially when they are Chinese people in forming a project group, staying together or just plain mixing. This is the part where I seek "comfort" in joining people. The comfort that is being termed ignorant from outside. I would really call this human tendencies. To achieve an equilibrium of satisfaction both to the heart and mind.

1. It's easy. I know the person's capability so it's easier to work together.
2. We're close and old friends.
3. Communication - English or Hokkien. Seriously haha. See, I tend to mix with people who regularly/tend to speak the English language fluently/poorly. And Hokkien. But there's a lot of lalas who speak hokkien in Penang I can't help it (out of topic).
4. Culture and Practices. This aspect covers a huge area. I am only going to point out some of the subconscious sub-aspects. Food - Halal/Non-Halal. And it's in tandem with respect even if someone says it's ok. Then I guess prayers is not really a problem because I didn't experience it but I heard of it as one. And what not that you may be thinking of by growing up in a Chinese family. You hear all sorts of things about other people.
5. Mind block.
6. Oh yeah this is for in M*sia in religion matters. This is a latent issue. Especially on marriages. Not about the food or dogs.

So you can blame human tendencies and let the politicians be the scapegoats. Other than that, why do we all have to discriminate one another. I know, this is already a very hard to treat situation already in our country. Many aspects and events were involved in the conception of such mentality. It's the war of the people and land. Modernly termed, business/money matters. One leads to another, they are not really independent. Refusal to change. Fear of losing. Strong and faithful in protecting rights. The will to save the heritage. Selfishness is easily just the factual cause.

Fundamental. Humans have settled and have been segregated into many different regions on Earth. From there, humans do changes and advance. To conquer. To win. To prosper. To live and be "happy". Meaning, to achieve goals and become satisfied in relation to their expectations.

That is a digress into the elements which are dated B.C. hah


Back to the topic of me being not racist.

I don't have to actually fight to say that I am not racist. That is just up to the way people see, judge and brand me. If I have 10 Chinese friends and 1 Malay friend so I'm racist then so be it the person likes to see people with numbers. If he sees that I have 1 Chinese friend and 10 Malay friends and thinks that I am stupid and betraying my race then he is really shallow and someone who I think is the real racist in my opinion. Et cetera.

There is really no point in seeing the different colours of the people in making decisions other than in the pointed out isolated cases.

When you're playing games or making plans, you look for people with the appropriate skills and attitude. In any sports I don't look for to choose particularly who I want to play with. It is just general that I want to play with people who are in a similar level of skills and fitness so I feel comfortable. ah this is a bit weird but it's ok..it is something to do with choosing people.

I fail in finding out how and why did I even bring this topic up. The photos of the plush toys gave out so many thoughts.

Here it is on love, human tendency appears again in love choices. I believe they are options and preferences. Take for example Chinese parents would advise their children not to marry black people. It's just weird. I believe it's just choices. One may think "wah so black I don't want". Yes, that's a choice. Not any racism. This does not apply though to people who really objects on interracial marriages. I believe it's human tendency to seek for comfort.

It's easy to fall in love. Physique. Face. Tonal characteristics. Personality. Behaviour. Thought. Creativity. Intelligence. So many aspects in gaining love. Note the first 3 points I write are actually the most common things people first look at when looking for mates. Basically, they mean looks. I forgot to add one more. Wealth, in terms of money matters. It's a commercialised world after all.

I think I quite have lost them the points I want to write about. But I believe again, I write enough for now. Boredom lingers starting from the very first sentence.
See, the dolphin has eaten the koala's head off already. Told you not to leave cute things behind...

And...

[DOG - GOD] ~ "funny" reversal ahha. can get condemned. but are both loving and caring existences.