59. Nothingness + Re: Buckethead & J-Rock

Ideals/Stress-talk

Here it is...

The best medium to suck this post up with is the Watchmen OST song by Philip Glass Ensemble (in filefactory)..load it!

By the way, I was somewhat involved in the Earth Hour event. Indirectly. Thanks to Jonathan who was in great support of the lights-off campaign, he persistently switched off everyone's lights. haha good one. And yeah I have a little wrong concept of the Earth Hour...I respect it for the aim to open up politician eyes. Remember people, remember Earth...I do have my share of love for Earth.

Meanwhile, I was preaching through the sms emitting radio waves and heat through the atmosphere to Hooi on the end of human inhabitancy on Earth. Cracked mind.

Re: Hooi

[A blog post I found which is dedicated to Buckethead too, http://musicmetalandstage.blogspot.com/]

And...this link here...a respect and dedication to the guitar and the mask.

So, there's Buckethead. If you're a childhood guitar fan, he's your masked hero swinging an axe which he used to "lick" and "chop" and produce extra-terrestrial melodies as such we used to enjoy during the times teachers and fathers use canes while we watch...Power Rangers.
The first original theme song that goes "Go! Go! Power Rangers!" was indeed written(should be) and performed by Buckethead. Now tell me who didn't listen to him... I did, most of us did. heh LTMAC

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My main point gets its enunciation here. A statement based on what Hooi has written, that is most of us we try to mine for the answers to life, find the meaning of life and try to make life as worthwhile as possible. But as a complement, why not try look into Buckethead's picture or rather his face...??..I mean his masked face. Let's use him as an example and slowly digress the attention into something which I had in mind to write on some time ago.

The plain emotionless mask. What can we tell from looking at it. I reckon we as humans do always have a lot to say as some being judgemental when we come across to look at somebody's face. Bloody. Smiley. Angry. Flawless. Or be it arrogant. We could describe them in relativity. But how about like Buckethead's? What do we have in mind? It could be anything, you know. That's my point, there's a whole lot of life and mystery behind and in the mask. Visually emotionless, reality-wise undefined. Maybe there's no English word I have learnt to give it a description.

It's hard to define something that is showing nothing. Of course the simplest way is to say it's nothing. Now we will head to the source that prompted us to describe it as "nothing". There's What, Why, Who, Where, Where and How. I'm addding into this hole-ly sheet of concept the word "Nothing" as an interrogative subject.

But think deeper and unconventionally. Make yourself stupid for awhile and clear some brain space for some out-of-the-world deliberation. Not to the extent you lose your sanity...I'm afraid I will someday and be declared, "seorang yang tidak sempurna akal" and lose my voting legal right.heh.

Alright, let me refine my purpose of topic here. In short without any further thinking I'd say, nothingness in life. I'm going to hell-relate everything I thought of and wanted to write in here. Cos' it's going to drift away from my mind soon again if I leave this unanswered unquestionable questions unattended.

Just look at this. I always have something in my mind when I look at it. Questions kept creeping in for answers. Answers begging for definition. Definitions insisting on relativity. Relativity is relatively nothing if there is only emptiness and nothingness.

[A jester-like blood-thirsty-looking face...is it a funny jester? or is it a scary violent guy?]

So I feel nothingness and emptiness in it. But how do we recognize that void as nothing and empty.

And so sprung up a new wondering in the mind. Actually my mind. I kept thinking from time to time when I have nothingness in my mind before I lapse into dreamworld. What is there outside this world. And I mean this universe. Beyond the perceived dark black wall which is decorated with beautiful yet sad(because stars die too) lights.

TRY THINK! Try imagine what am I trying to ask about. Keep religion aside for the moment. Let's talk science..have I not search up the materials? No, ok I heard about all those superstring theory and 6-dimensional spaces and interactions. I've yet to read on that Elegant Universe (Brian Greene) book. ok then let's go beyond and way out of the state of science. Are we in a box or some polygonal container? Move on to something religion...so God created it, and then what's outside the "sandbox of castles and kingdoms of our world"? Heaven? Hell? Afterworld?

How about our conscience behind our existence? Take this life you're currently living right now. Is it the first installment of your soul or your soul have been travelling from body to bodies ever since God breathed lives into this world? Do you have memories or feelings from your past body or life? Then I wonder where will I head to after this life, if it's not Heaven/Hell/Nirvana/Suffering/somewhere eternal. That's the nothingness I can't manage to fathom any greater depths. Imagine being not alive. But not anywhere related to God or this Earth. Being nothing as named in English as "nothing". Scientifically, being not any matter at all.

[This guy an exception is a little bit different...dota players will know wat]

It's crazy. Or rather I'm insane. But I persist, I'm fanatical about the out of the mind. It's ok if you tell me I'm coming back as something biotic. Hmm..what if it's abiotic. For an example, reincarnation as a stone or the tiny silicone sand of a microchip -if you're talking about matters available/created currently in this life-. How about being plants, vegetables or trees? heh

This is a little different from what I'm expecting...an excerpt from The Great Compassion Mantra of Buddhism.
"..in emptiness there is no form, feeling, cognition, formation or consciousness; no eyes, ears, nose, tongue, body or mind; no sights, sounds, smells, tastes, objects of touch or dharmas; no field of the eyes, up to and including no field of mind-consciousness; and no ignorance or ending of ignorance, up to and including no old age and death or ending of old age and death. There is no suffering, no accumulating,no extinction, no way and no understanding and no attaining. Because nothing is attained, the Bodhisattva, through reliance on Prajna Paramita, is unimpeded in his mind. Because there is no impediment, he is not afraid, and he leaves distorted dream thinking far behind. Ultimately Nirvana!"
(I have no intention wherein I reproduce this text to promote or allegedly misleading people)

A concept of life strongly debriefed and that I refer to as a measure of our existence. Maybe I'm afraid of afterlife, that's it.

Anyone having any opinion or advice or answer(be it vague/self-ideal/religion/science/psychiatric or anyhow..)..as long as you have something to divulge or any form of enlightenment. Do post them comments or reach me through my email address(either known or by request).fuh..tiring I've been trying to imagine. I like to but it's just super unnatural.

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Re: Cheng Yee
Words don't come easily. That's why J-Rock or the darker tones with emotions are conceived to help us feel and realise that we have a heart. @#$%^&* That's how YW and I got the hell out of headbanging way back in 2007, the year Despa, Diru and etc flooded into me. haha
As we all know, we Chinese people just can't try to follow in their footsteps to look like one of them...that's just plain lala with laughable hairstyles. Try-hards ya noe.. or self-proclaims. I respect a lot of the fans I know here...you guys don't at all try to look bullpoop..real faithful fan be j-pop or j-rock. Salute!

And let's be clear with the terms Rockstar and Rocker. A completely out of genre topic comparison is in Lindsay Lohan or...Amy Winehouse?? I'm not sure..they just got into bigger headlines with bigger heads as more money are channelled into them. So same goes to Rocker and Rockstar. The difference is in the attitude and style of expression. Synonymously, a Rocker may be as stone-cold as rocks..and add the star into it, you get something bright and shining with bling-blings and fame. Well, stars do lose their energy someday and die into a supernova.

It's all nevertheless a cycle..you see...in life. Before the end, it's just the matter of which path you take. And earning different karmas. Basic: Energy. To live. And die. Transform. hmm...

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[]As a note, I write all these opinions and concepts that were under the name Stressm out of interest, curiosity and disability to understand as well as accept the available conventional resources in this world. I do not do extensive research as I did not wish to prove something new or something wrong. In the hands of all Gods and researchers and readers, I do not mean rebel or mislead. For some it MIGHT be blasphemy and heresy, these two condemnations are to my opinion an idealistic conformation to rejection. Forgive and salvage.

At the same time, I would love to compile all my maybe-delusional writings and write a thesis become a PhD...niceee but I would not like to see myself in such field and I am not going to find myself capable of devouring degree and masters in the future...an opposition to most of my family relatives who believe in, "read until there's no more books to read-get to as high a degree possible into knowledge".

Cheers. Live life first. We'll see what's up for us after life.
..well..Ministry of Sound/Euphoria here I come try this night..tagging with Jason and Mou Jian \m/,

[Buckethead photo taken from homegrownmusic.net. Power Ranger picture taken from comicsuperhero-wallpaper.blogspot.com. James #4 Root jester mask replica picture taken from..some store selling it. J-rock photos taken from Last.fm. Faceless Void picture taken from googling(online-station.net).]

[Good listen! Watchmen OST song-->]

56. I'm God...

Stress-Talk/Ideals/Personal

So how do actually people judge or view one another? How do people start to gain trust. How do people begin to have fun. How do people just find amusement and make life just so colourful and blossom with filthy immaculateness. Just some random(fun yet social abusive) topic to write on.

Attitude.

Behaviour.

Body language.

Gossip/reference.

Favoritism Judgement.

Face value(visual perception).

What I'm trying to bring to thought here is related to human physical and mental interaction which is not so into social-contact but includes more of the surrounding issues and especially which deals with the eye and the mind. At least, for comprehensive purpose I will write it in a more straight-to-the-point manner.

Take this, you walk into a place. And then you don't feel too comfortable. Either feeling out of place or when a lot of heads are turned facing you. Let's minus these instances such as unzipped pants, funny hairstyle, and outstanding visual values like pretty/sexy/handsome/big/great.
So what are the potential causes to the feelings concocted and blended through the nerves and be interpreted as a visual-environmental-tunnel-perplex in the head. Simply, you feel like people are looking at you for dunno wat reasons.

I've collected a few causes, sources of this "perasan" case. "Perasan" can be defined as being very aware of the surrounding interaction or being self-conscious. One obvious reason is of course being so self-conscious thinking that everyone would be looking at you. In short, vain.

So if it isn't self-conscious, what is it.
Inferiority complex.
Feeling inferior. Not so good huh. Feel that people are looking down at you. For no apparent reason apart from lack of self-confidence/esteem, you just feel like people don't accept the way you are there.

Reality status-discrimination.
Sometimes. For certain people. Sometimes people who got overflowing cash and beautiful paycheques just have different visions with levels of arrogance. But some really are different, the one who whose heads elevated and do not even take a glance. And sometimes the other way, like a super rich clean guy entering a poor slum.

Style.
This one surfaces more among young people. When rockers meet popstars, hip-hoppers battle disney-dancers or classical musicians drink with black metal worshippers. Goth vs mainstream. Sometimes the uniques catch discriminative attention and sometimes they get idol worshipped. But at times the simples get the thumbs down. Just about who turns up conspicuous.

The "in"-"loud"-"prominent"-"pretty" group.
This one also occurs more often within the young generations. Though, the elders usually get the attention either when they are a group of drinkers or a group of foul language loudspeakers. So, like this, the group with the most good-looking men and ladies. Or the one which could generate the loudest attention-seeking noise.

I could think of only those. Actually these are playing in my mind while being in the experience of going through different kinds of people or basically when you enter somewhere new to y-ourselves. A common but sucky, self-"de-personalising"(and at times against own principles) solution is to fit in. Think of it. Being new to a community who does something you don't do(or dislike) and then trying to fit in by doing it. The most fundamental explanatory example would simply be pick up smoking when everyone else around you smoke. Hey, you think it's foolish, yes but it's happening now in the schools, cities, suburbs and societies. Come on, the best example I can give you is, practically almost everyone smokes in my hostel last year.

Enough said, about fitting in or doing something common to feel right at place. Basically, I just feel uncomfortable when people turn their heads to look. It's without a doubt in fact a form of self-conscious. Because sometimes it's just a reaction for people to look up in attention. I know.

But, being totally out of place yeah out of Penang I can just feel it. And especially being from the obscure school distant from the place I always patronize. Today, I'm already quite settled at that vicinity but still, the complex in the head is still in the air. Totally chinese people...mandarin..chinese songs..."cool" hairstyles..plus real china people.

The stand-out difference that I can really feel is it doesn't happen with the overwhelming populated black people(africans/middle-easts/afric-americ). I have more due respect for them more than I have with the IIIothersIII. Forgive me for I myself being a Chinese saying things as such. I feel good and proud anyway being in a school with so few of my ethnicity. No I am not against my own race. I'm just a bit sensitive and have a certain social-mental distortion against that kind that exists in the race. You KNOW what I mean.

Tagline: It's so much easy to find Malaysian rockers among the Malays and find similar interest-bound clicks.

Of course, language does a little barrier to our social blender. hurh..In my opinion, in KL they insist on speaking Cantonese. Other place, Mandarin would be very much preferable. Although they have to learn English and BM to communicate with international students but they ain't like/gona speak other than Chinese with us, Chinese ethnic Malaysians. In Penang, heh simply easy Hokkien does the job. Most actually know mandarin and cantonese but come on, it's Penang our lingua franca is Hokkien. Foot to you mandarin in Penang haha.

This one is personal a bit(but not necessarily my incident). I just don't like when you people start to change language and speak to one another to discuss something else in a middle of a big discussion/conversation especially with people who don't understand. I just don't feel good, as if I'm in the plan to conspire, but actually I don't understand either. This is an example from my Moral class last year with the lecturer being the only Malay. And also Indians who do that switch of language. hurh..mana respect ni.

So back from digressing...that much is a subtopic of finding a living in out of place. Practically or basically that is, trying hard to retain and remain being yourself.

Like, I actually really lose myself when clubbing. Another kind of show of fitting-in.

When in a group, I feel safer and much more steady. But sometimes I do get out of hand especially doing a group thing. A basic form of joining in the fun.

If solo, that's really me myself and no influences except mind blowing pressure in the head thinking shits and fits while being alone with the past and future logs come crashing in suddenly. Could be saddening. Could be joyful which you might happen to catch yourself smiling and laughing by yourself out of the blue/green/black/red etc. Most of the time I'm humble and kinda the shy type.

What do you think? I always think of the James Bond cool way. Funny. In the end, I find myself turning my head quickly enough to avoid eye-contact but usually it's already too obvious when the girl I'm looking at turns to look back in the same direction. That is why I always do a quick-scanning..the hermit-timid kind.

ahah but when I'm full of confidence and brim-full of esteem I go crazy. Out of control. I totally unleash. Maybe that's the just my real personality. As for being ourselves. But I have a Stresser comment. What we do(peer/tv-influences negligible) is actually a form of being ourselves because that's us doing if not being possessed and when subconsciously we do not feel good after doing is because that is not what we like in our head but it's nature that our hearts guide the actions. This explains on how certain adults end up in a career different from their ambition...they go with the flow and for being themselves they just accept and decide on what they are capable of with limitations.

So if He's God..I'm Godder? Right. If they are cooler, we're just hot.

This is just an example of what I think is freestyle. It says, why worry?. Trying to grasp the stoicism and hedonism within the hair. Maybe Jonathan who always sleeps(a.k.a TuKia->hokkien-jaredi-pinyin) could explain..haah

*Tad-bits of bite for the season(new feature!!!): The scientific and logical fundamental of music is rhythm and sound come from everything that comes into contact and produces a pulsating waves that are interpreted as sound waves and be recognized as sound. And the root of production of sound could be hitting or knocking. Take pound on the table. Tap the feet. Knock on the door(not necessarily Heaven's). And repeated action of such in a faster(may it be aggresive) manner like knocking, stomping or talking(or shouting/screaming) is considered a progressive sound production. Talking/screaming is a form of melodic and varying pitch and frequency bounded waves that can be derived from a single note that comes out from the mouth. So? So in the events of those repetitions, noise, colloquially is produced as known as an unwanted/disgusted form of sound. So, yeah you can brand Rock/Metal music as noise. It's true but you just can't bear it. heh such fun.

Cos, "if it ain't Rock it ain't music"~Hooi's t-shirt, December 23, 2008.

In my opinion, overjoyful-mainstream/pop music is noisy. Bad mix of syncs...noisy howls. At least rock has its clear rhythm. Crispy. Even hip-hop heh. Anyhow, just find your favourite music and suck it up no one's vexin'.

31. Quantum of Solace: The Funeral of Hearts

Stress-talk

Currently enjoying the loudness of Avenged Sevenfold and downloading the latest Dragonforce XD

Enlightenment for a brighter path, dissertation of processes and inquisition into the sub-element of life...

The fork and spoon of life..(in some cases, chopsticks and knives). What are their equivalents in life? They poke, cut, pierce, dig, split, scoop, etc and finally dismember any particular object. In life, I think it's either the heart or the brain or might be the dick. I'm still looking into it whether our heart guides the hand or the body does the sometimes evil bidding of the brain. Emotion vs Brainpower. That doesn't matter so much now.

The play of feelings. The game of hearts. The link of emotions. The immeasurable degree of temptation. Love. For my level(personal), it's given the simple term "feeling". Not hunch. "Human-to-human Attraction Hormone".

So, what's up people. What is going on in this world. Or rather this life that breaks more than it may mend yet it is so fore-warned that it shall be handled with care. We just let it flow naturally. But we do know how to control it. And why we humans, are still so naive and stubborn only to let our hearts be broken.

(this is freaking me out, I am not so sure what I wrote actually make any sense yet..I actually forgot what I've drafted in mind to write here)

I had conversations with a few persons today including my mum this very first day after returning from jungle 400+km away. And they all involve love.

No, I'm not in trouble. But the surrounding is in trouble. It might not be as bad as I think. But to me, it hurts to think about it. When especially friendships are at stake of "feelings"-relationships. The single very powerful element in life. But it's two-faced. If you learn Moral on Moral Values and Ethics, there's two kinds of value: an instrumental and another is intrinsic. The instrumental, as it's related to materials defines the values as to nurture something so as to materialise something else with no real true perceived good intention, usually bad as being materialistic to the extent of being self-centred. Intrinsic on the other hand defines the values as natural and good in intention straightforwardly. In this case of love, the facade usually looks real good. Very normal, every normal typical human with no strong abstaining foundation could fall for it.

As mentioned, it could destroy. It brings chaos and disorganization. And I learn this from the people, some say, "it's best to remain as friends, otherwise intimacy could break us apart even from being just friends". But of course, some smarter hearts or people who truly understand the meaning of love and care without the lure of intimacy managed to get through life happily and ever after. It varies among many different types of people. But the concept is there I think, you either accidentally blow it or keep the flame burning with true mutual respect.

It's agonizing. Not as directly a lover or victim. Indirectly.. I gain my kind of experience and knowledge from friends and acquaintances. The suffering. The pain. Of each person come and go and hurting one another. I don't know. It's worse when you're dealing with a higher degree of maturity and there is more serious life-threatening emotions being involved. Meaning more harm generated if a breakage were to happen.

During the younger teenage years, love may just be infatuations, puppy-loves(my term is "puppet-love") and plain love-at-first-sights...that which when a failure occurs, it only injures at most the level of having false expectations or failed anticipations. In my opinion, it's immature and serious immaturity does lead to premature life delusion(or sometimes deaths). But at higher level, usually either at the start of adulthood or later on, a great deal of series of mental fluctuations takes place. Because at higher level of maturity, more values are being taken into seriously and expected/requested such as care, comfort, attention, material and etc., basically of a good life). When they are not met, mutual understanding starts to fail. If not handled appropriately or when one individual loses out to another competitor then the fallen may suffer and break.

The point here is not directing the blame to any side or particular figure. It's kind of like a key and lock. The whole point actually involves the "key into the lock" basic, which is the source and embryo to physical/sexual attraction a.k.a temptation. I have told this more than once in the same day (weird enough) on the basic derivation that I've attained from various sources that, men want women (women also want men) and usually women are caught in between (I'm not sure about the worldwide sex population). So women are like switches or diodes in electrical circuits which are men. Take for example, if there's a problem with the switch or the diode in a circuit, definitely electrical current will suffer some resistance or breakage. It's not to put the women at fault. I am merely showing the link of "I-need-you and you-need-me".

Sometimes it looks as though there's a succubus ruining lives but seriously it couldn't be helped. Humans, in my opinion make up a part of the animal kingdom on Mother Earth. So it's only natural, instinctive or intuition that we men and women succumb easily to temptations. Another way positively is, also natural, the mating need which prompted humans to hunt relentlessly and compete against each other.

My mum added, men do not think with their head. They think with their dicks. How true in certain cases. Though you(or we) may not feel it or not admit it but I think that is only normal.

It makes up the whole balance system in life. The ups and downs equal constant, that means there can not be ups only all the time and vice-versa. Some people living happily together, some enjoy playing with hearts while some do the "enjoy the silence" loneliness.

Basically, I see the play of love is doing more harm to people now. This seriously has an impact at an early stage of believing love is pure and free(flowing). But for me, it's still a long way to go from here and hopefully I don't get involved(in any treacherous relationship)(speaking from Jared's point).

After all, it's a wicked game we play. In life.

[No brains were screwed writing this screwy post, only plain mental torture inside out and plain sleepiness]

Friends and foes, buckle up. Life is fun but it is no joke.

[Thanks to the people who had inspiring talks on these with me. Quantum of Solace is of the upcoming 007 Bond movie title. Funeral of Hearts is of a song thievery from HIM. Inspiring phrases or words from Marilyn Manson - Heart-shaped Glasses(When The Heart Guides The Hand), Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence, Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc. and Chris Isaak - Wicked Game. Not forgetting the Bernoulli's Theory.]

If you don't understand this post, forget about it I will try write something comprehensible. It's been a trouble for me to story-tell and explain things properly to people...urgh..twisted tongue

24. The Dawn to the Darkness

Stress-Talk

Let me try create something out of nothing. Fill nothingness with blankness.

hmm...brainstorm. headbang. fresh air.. music....free time
Ok, this will be a short one if I couldn't.

I talked to Jonathan about the zero state or zero level neutral condition. Which God knows what's this is about.

Let's say. If everyone becomes good people and there's zero vices. Sinless. So the world turns good. So good becomes the normal level. The neutral. Like nothing. Let's mark it as zero. So like I mentioned before on the relation with Integers in Mathematics. Zero is now the goodness. I stated that it will go up or go down from there. I just don't know why, I didn't think well enough(as usual) perhaps. When Jonathan says, ok let the world continue to go up in positive numbers. It struck me in the pancreas. He means letting the world do better and better and be greater at being good. At that point, I just suddenly stopped dead at my thought to stand for my principles. Hmm..I think and think and I agreed that time. But I kinda deny that the increase that is higher than the zero level leads to something else. It might not be good-er. So what? There's a miscalculation and lost of thought in this matter. I gotta sit back and relax, unwind recollect my thoughts and analyse. Hmm...haven't done laundry in 3 days.

Ok, back to quotes and prophecies... I watched Batman(on the premier day). Commercial title is Dark Knight. Snippets of spoilers here.

Let me talk a bit about my surroundings first. hehe, my first time in fact having movie-goers beside me getting so moved and emotional besides laughter. There's these people around me who kept uttering, "shit!", "oh no!", "shit" and more "shitt". It's normal actually, I have seen my aunts all scream and begging for God's mercy for the hero in the movies, and a senior schoolmate communicating with the characters in the movie like, "watch out! At the back of you!" "NO! TURN RIGHT!" "ah ur leg!" "hit him harder!" "GOSH! YOU'RE SO DUMB". Back to the Batman. Because there's scenes which really threaten audiences to curl, pray for forgiveness and ponder whether the killing or hurting will take place. In the end,[spoiler] most of the hurtings happen for real. So to me, this movie is violent but erm..but not gory. Just a little sadistic and satirical. Ah, just how great the acting of Heath Ledger(R.I.P.) for the character The Joker. Pure awesomeness. And Christian Bale trying to sound like Corey Taylor in Batman suit. Lots of surprises in this movie. Just pure greatness. Being a realistic humanoid superhero movie, this is a great action-movie for me. The other would be Indiana Jones in this year. Other super great special effect action-movies for me are still Transformers and the new ones are Ironman and The Incredible Hulk. HULK SMASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
So in the movie, there's this quote: You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain. What's the point there? The magnifent two-face ever changing world. The perception of people. The thoughts alike. Sometimes you do good but you are blessed wrongly, short-termed. But some bad guys really live forever with good blessings. Let's not talk about afterdeath or life. What The Joker does is really similarly of Goth, if according to YW's post. Non-mainstream conformist way. The unidealistic. Do what's right and fun for himself. But of course, Stressm objects to his deeds in instigating and killings. But by watching the movie, I developed a sense of empathy for him. I also feel what he is doing serves mankind right. Sometimes there are just these kind of mavericks who try to show the world a different path but too bad, the mainstream view the move as "illegal".

Same to my brother's conformity with Karl Marx's Communism ideology. Is it an ideology? Same thing again, it depends on how you accept them. I do not really believe there's right or wrong but it's subtle. Absurd at times. Or sometimes people just use the wrong method with the wrong tools. But that's also the maverick's way. You use fund-raising activity to help create awareness towards some peace work. The maverick might use fireworks and display of bloodshed to cease war and promote peace.

Greed sometimes or at all times plays a part. For an example, you would want some part of the profit or credit gained. haha but Batman doesn't, really. He endures it. And that is why he is the Dark Knight.[watch the movie then you will know wth i just mentioned]

"WHY SO SERIOUSSS?!" ~The Joker

Ok, new thought. (not bad..maybe it's music that keep my brain generating new ideas..just listened to Avenged Sevenfold's Seize The Day guitar solo).

This way. Take Batman. He fights crimes. He tries hard to reach the zero level. So let's say zero level is attained. Which means he is no longer needed? Or he is the new deal to the cops? The movie targets him as a law breaker..some kind of Hancock? By the way, Hancock movie is really inspirational. Batman, gona be the new villain? That's the point in that zero level theory. When the "bad" extincts, the "good" becomes the bad in order to restore to good. Any idea what this explains? I feel this agrees to the principle that higher or lower fluctuation from the zero level leads to something else. And it comes back to the cycle principle. Take this, when you are bad, you will want to be good. When you are good, you do something bad and you become bad.

Theoretical.

SUbjective. Big Banging.

My belief: Take this life as neutral. Then you screw, you do real bad stuffs like killing and raping. Next life, you suffer and suffer bad fate as a vengeance to your past life and then you repent. In the following life, you lead a poor life like a new beginning. Next life your life turns back to neutral. So the cycle of life goes on. However this is not in line with or being taught by Buddhism and in Karma, though it's similar in the sense of cycle.

It takes free time and twisted neurones to come up with these ideas to write.

Sucked. Absorbed. The by-products are to be expelled soon. 2 hours of blogging two posts..and Jonathan has continued his nap. But I didn't post this instantly.

Cheers. This might be one of the very few last large hours of free time I am going to have... Savour!

Back to jungle life.

"Take me home to the paradise city where the grass is green and the girls are pretty" ~Paradise City, Guns N' Roses

21. The Rape of Misconception

Stress-Talk

Quantum Physics

There is an update. Eric has completed his VERY COOL & LONG POST reminiscing on our good ol' mfking twisted spleen stress anorexic ass splitting Editorial Board days. The way there. And so I include that link in my recent post which has a part on it too. Cheers to the bloodiest board members ever.

[STRESS has finally made its comeback in posting something stressful but with a twist in its way of expressing. Perhaps the Friendster Stressm blog would not be continued but I think I might just use that place to relate lyrics with my views and meanings. So, as to celebrate it... The Pangea post was already a major move.(actually there were already posts with thoughts from Stresser just that I don't reveal the identity earlier. They are 1. New Blood Joins, 2. Patience, 7. Tribute to My Brain and 12. A Trip to Hell & Void]

Imagine a world with no borders.

Try not imagine.

Feel. Escape from the lies that encapsulate us. Break free from the vortex which separates our perception from the truth concealed.

"you reap what you sow"

One says it's the rule of the karma - what goes around comes around.

Hooi, remember like the games I create for you in the emails "to punish you".

I found this website somewhere someone refer the readers to to get an understanding through the lines and depictions from the life. Find some free time to read it. Nice read, really.

www.british-israel.ca/you_reap_what_you_sow.htm
This is in no way of emphasizing or embracing any religion referred or mentioned.

There are still so many examples and true or real-life depictions in explaining and bringing us closer to the saying. So don't kinda blame God or ask why bad luck happens to you. Try asking, why do the others deserve bad lucks and accidents more and not you, when you feel life is unfair. A simple answer is "God loves you more". heh

And coincidentally, there goes the saying in the movie Kung Fu Panda by Master Oogway, "There are NO accidents". Plainly, it coincides with my belief in fate and prophecies. Yeah, of course not literal and direct with the meaning from the dictionary of "accident". It just means that you really can't get oranges by accident if you planted peaches in the first place. This movie has exactly the principle to explain it.

The other way to think of it would be, to believe. Stop messing around the world and your head saying, "it can't be, it can't be... this must be a mistake". Rather, move on with it and unravel the true truth which you long to know, dying to understand it and living to research it.

The movie series of Saw has what it takes to show you the fruit of the saying. I have a twist on it, "you rip what you saw" literally, saw in the context of using the tool to cut. haha. You see, the victims in the movie were actually people who had done bad things. And the traps John Kramer set are sets that test the victims themselves on how would they feel if they were in the position of their victims in the past when they commit bad deeds unto them (anyone has a better phrasing of this sentence??) and why their victims deserved their tragedies. Actually, same goes to the "teacher"-cum-"trap-setter" John. He's punishing the people. What does it takes to be the punisher? A messiah in another way.

But you know, everyone knows superheroes couldn't possibly save everyone in the world. It's either someone saves people in New York, or Ultraman fighting monsters in Tokyo, Cicakman fighting crimes in Kuala Lumpur. Yeah, that's why there were so many superheroes, created and placed my their makers in their respective hometowns as guardians to the world.

Alright, this is the ultimate and primary destination of this post. The Matrix.

Watched it once 10 years back to enjoy it and watched it recently to understand. Superb. Very good spin-off of life. I don't quite understand it totally yet(I still have Reloaded and Revolutions to research) and I really, don't know how to relate and make explanation of it. I can't die dead enough to show you how interested I was in this prophecy-related philosophical life-blender-ing fruitcake.

Believe - This is mentioned after the citation on Kung Fu Panda. In relation to "believing", Stresser had this old post titled I Think I BELIEVE which include Joe Satriani's I Believe lyrics as reference.
(am i out of the topic?)

Yeah, everything here today, now, this very moment you are reading is related to the cases told in that link I gave. In The Matrix movie, it shows that what you believe is real and it is the truth unbeknownst to the your perception or the daily life(which is explained as "fake" and "forced-imaginary"). An example, you believe you will fall after the big leap, so you fall. You reap what you sow, in a different way and context. So you believe you can dodge the bullets and survive, you do. Neo(Keanu Reeves) done it with pride and machoness. Just, believe. People also always say "believe in yourself" so why not.

Similar kind of event takes place before one's last breath in its body in this world. You see there are so many dramas showing you people encourage dying people to stay strong and don't give up. Yeah, it really works. That's the conscience humans have. In our subconsciousness, we live and we are controlled mentally(psychologically). You believe you're going to die and end so you let go of your life. So you believe you are stronger than you think you were and opt to stay longer in this Earth, you do and you make the doctors' wallet bigger. This of course could not be applied(in our this reality) if the brain is already dead or the heart not functioning well anymore. common sense la..

More than true, the movie unveils the deception we faced within our world and the matrix. True, we're always deceived by our own perceptions. Daydreaming doesn't apply here, understood. We are merely controlled. In the brain. Thus, disillusions occur. Misunderstanding. False faith. Perversion of the mind. Misuse of the physical entity. Doomed by our visions. Because "you see what you do" and what we do is wrong so what we see is also wrong.

I had this description(not prescription for madness) for Stressm written and that's after I listened to some Buddhism talk by a speaker. It has these accounts on unrealistic desires and expectations. That's also the key to our unhappiness and ungratefulness. We tend to expect too much or assume that we can get the best or better but results don't turn out as what we've wanted and that causes unhappiness. Because we don't get what we want obviously. Reap what you sow, but let's not put the blame ungratefully to solely ourselves. We really can't tell and we're not The Oracle or Nostradamus to see the future. We really don't know well about our limits so, the oranges you plant might not grow as big as you've hoped for. But as explained, the key of "you reap what you sow" is there just that we're not omni-mind-present.

One sickening truth but it cannot be helped, humans like to be blinded. The natural blindness is already there and it leads to find better blindness. All in the Seven Deadly Sins.

So, that's it I have to say more or less in this special edition 21st post in this 21st century written in the 4am of pre-dawn of June 21st. But not posted immediately. Yeah but it is scheduled to be posted at 2100 hours of the day. What significance it has in the number 21? Dunno, just mere awesomeness.

There, another cut-out excerpt and picture I "accidentally" found in the websites...regarding Karma.
http://shyamasundaradasa.com/jyotish/what_is_jyotish/what_is_vedic_astrology/what_is_vedic_astrology_1.html

this is a bit disturbing- take a closer look they exchanged faces.

To clear up some facts. heh. I got interested to write on this just suddenly when my speaker blared "cos what you reap is what you sow!", while playing the last line from the song Wake Up by Rage Against The Machine. And you know what, this song is in The Matrix OST. The song was played during the start of the credit.

Here's the earlier mentioned extra "story-telling" which I want to include. This just has got all the examples and real-life accounts of the "reap what you sow" principle. Nicely written, with title that's totally connected too. I got this article from a forwarded email and I would like to share with you readers who are interested to spare some time looking and peering into our life for one short moment. You don't have to make any decision, just read and be amused.

Hopefully this can ignite the sunlight in some of your hearts. Some or one(particularly..) should take note and not go on acting and live a dumb life and be all f* up about others and especially your significant other, learn that you are the one misleading yourself and don't influence others to f* the way with you. Positively, I hope you close connected readers could learn one or two things and cheer up more in life.

Here it is after some minor digression.
The Law of the Seed
Take a look at an apple tree. There might be five hundred apples on the
tree, but each apple has just ten seeds. That's a lot of seeds!
We might ask, "Why would you need so many seeds to grow just a few more
apple trees?"
Nature has something to teach us here. It's telling us: "Not all seeds
grow. In life, most seeds never grow. So if you really want to make
something happen, you had better try more than once."

This might mean:
·You'll attend twenty interviews to get one job.
·You'll interview forty people to find one good employee.
·You'll talk to fifty people to sell one house, one car, one vacuum
cleaner, one insurance policy, or a business idea.
·And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find one special
friend.

When we understand the "Law of the Seed", we don't get so disappointed. We
stop feeling like victims. We learn how to deal with things that happen to
us. Laws of nature are not things to take personally. We just need to
understand them - and work with them.

IN A NUTSHELL
Successful people fail more often. But they plant more seeds.

When Things Are Beyond your control, here's something that you must NOT DO
so as to avoid misery in your life:
- You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be.
- You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave.
- Then, when the world doesn't obey your rules, you get angry!
- That's what miserable people do!

On the other hand, let's say you expect that:
- Friends SHOULD return favours.
- People SHOULD appreciate you.
- Planes SHOULD arrive on time.
- Everyone SHOULD be honest.
- Your husband or best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.

These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't
happen!
- So you end up frustrated and disappointed.
- There's a better strategy. Demand less, and instead, have preferences!
- For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself:
- "I would prefer "A", but if "B" happens, it's OK too!"

This is really a change in mindset. It is a shift in attitude, and it gives
you more peace of mind ...
You prefer that people are polite ... but when they are rude, it doesn't
ruin your day.
You prefer sunshine ... but if it rains, it is ok too!
To become happier, we either need to change the world or change our
thinking. It is easier to change our Thinking!

In summary
It is not the problem that is the issue,
but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the
problem.

It's not what happens to you that determine your happiness.
It's how you think about what happens to you!

[song title thievery from Die Dead Enough by Megadeth and Fruitcake by Stone Sour]
[pictures are courtesy of the artists and authors involved. Not any of mine]

20. Pangea, Global Peace & Forsaken Love

Stress-Talk

[STRESS finally touched down with some thoughts to stress]

It's been almost a month or so since I write a value-added post and this post was in drafting ever since. I don't really think it's any special or impact-driving writing. Precious and productive moments are required in the process of a decent post. Not any near dawn time or in a rush to the bed moment. Yes, this paragraph is written with my rectum very urged to let out a volley of mashed digested by-products...sorry, being too detailed. A moment please...

So as the title is concerned. Pangea. Our Earth. The Mother Earth. The land. Our land. Our world. Our life. A world without borders and boundaries. No segregation. No discrimination. No intimidation. No colonialism. No terrorism. No bloodshed.

Peace. What is peace anyway? What defines peace. What defines war anyway...so what we see everyday now is war..does that mean the neutral state or the zero position of balance is "war". So if this "war" fluctuates(either go positive or negative from the zero position) to "peace", is it good? Have we experienced peace? Or peace rather just means no war. But there's still competition right. There's terrorism like bank robbery and riot in demonstrations. Peaceful? Or let's say everything becomes "good" and "positive", will the human race continue to be productive? When there is no fight, no competition, no striving to be great, no hunger. Eventually, a cycle continues its circle. One feat followed by another and one exploitation followed by mutiny and a scarcity followed by a fight in the market.

I have this discussion with my friend about our world without animosity. He believes that we will all someday achieve peace and when that time comes, everyone is "smart" in the sense that everyone does their own good deed and not meddling with others' property so everything is kept clean and pure. I don't know but in my head(plus prophecy heh), I believe that a cycle would eventually prevail. I always believe everything is a cycle. I study Science too. In this Law of Entropy, it is stated that energy cannot be created nor destroyed. www.entropylaw.com states, "Entropy (the subject of the second law) and energy (the subject of the first law) and their relationship are fundamental to an understanding not just of physics, but to life (biology, evolutionary theory, ecology), cognition (psychology)".

It's a flow. I'm not sure either (or I haven't read about it) on how the energy of this life got started in the first place. Big Bang? heh. So in my opinion, if everyone is "smart", I think there would be no advancement or improvement as there is no drive and no some sort of energy flow into something greater. It's proven in this current human evolution that pride and greed exist. So the cycle will make its turn.

That's a minor digression but it holds a little truth and facts for the whole topic here.

You can read this post in parts over days time. I don't want you to get bored or to have no interest in reading especially if you're just looking for an easy-reading.

[The song in my filefactory Tainted World is dedicated.]

Pangea. www.answers.com states the meaning as a hypothetical supercontinent consisting of the whole land area of the globe before it was split by continental drift.

The Pangaea [taken from www.answers.com]

I would say, I would not be this lucky to come across this word and meaning by myself. It's Mr. Wei Tong who out of nothing and at one night he started disseminating this video from youtube, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KfXlISY6L0 on Pangea Day. So, this whole pangea thing is worldwide spread and it even has a day to be celebrated over.

My mission here is to continue Wei Tong's effort to bring this part of truth of life into you readers.

I will hereby write out the excerpts from this video, primarily the messages from the key people who gave speech.

"You and I, all of us are members of one family. We are sisters and brothers and we're going to sink or swim together." ~Archbishop Desmond Tutu.

"Our modern world is divided by borders, injustice, fear, mistrust, violence, poverty..."~Narrator

"I've also seen the possibility and power when people choose to overcome the impulse to dehumanize the other. I have witness the power let's call it the Pangea Principle when even for a few minutes or a few hours human to human contact can triumph when people to people diplomacy can cut through and show our leaders and all of us what is possible and that there is another way."~Christian Amanpour, International Correspondent CNN

"My late husband loved to fly. And one night, when he and I were alone in the plane, he pointed down to glittering lights separated by shadows below. He said there's Jordan, Lebanon, Syria, Palestine, Israel even Egypt... so close. It's only natural that we should be one community living in harmony together. He knew well that our borders are our own creation. The lines we draw on maps are not drawn on the Earth that he could have imagined in modern day Pangea like today where we're all clustered together in harmony like these glittering lights on this small and fragile planet."~Queen Noor of Jordan

That much only I am able to script it out. Not much anyway, I just kinda go over the edge and the top to bring this topic a little bit edgier with a tinge of philosophy talk in this post.

There's these few videos which I find VERY interesting. Science stuff. If you are a tad curious then you can visit and watch them. Only less than 5 minutes long videos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1oza6jybOA
&
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oBAbD8bhoM&feature=related

"You are a part of the great divide, the chosen, or the frozen; Now you're miles away without an egg"~Corey in the Stone Sour track, The Frozen.

[The song Ebony And Ivory is dedicated.]

Love for the earthlings.

We are all sons n daughters of Earth. My belief. I don't care if your god is my maker or my god wants to destroy your god. My father and mother exist from this Earth. They call him/her Mother Earth. I am your brother. You're my father, mother, sister and brother. Alright, if you don't like, we're cousins. So there is love, everywhere.

And I always ask myself and sometimes express doubt to my family members on what is love. Their answers are questions like, "do you miss us when you..." " do you think of us when....." "do you long to ....." etc. I recently gave in to the bottomless quest for the answer, i kinda got drowned when i could not fathom any greater. But then I seek my own answers. I found the little truths unbeknownst to me all this while, that in this great divine of love there lies bond and attachment. You know right, we're all mostly grown up enough to understand this. Hopefully you would if you hadn't. Examples are like I don't bother about my fish but when it started to grow unhealthy or eventually it dies, I would weep and mourn for it in sadness. heh.

There's this another example from a Hokkien movie still showing in channel NTV7(Malaysia). This grown up orphan who had her parents abandoned her at young age hated her mother so much when she returned to claim her back as a daughter. She doesn't want to recognize her as a mother, she ignored her and she ostracized her. But when she found out that her mother was in the hospital, she started to regret. And then someone came to tell her that her mother just passed away. She suddenly broke down and cried. In no time, she rushed to the hospital crying out loud for her mother only to be chasing a van down the road transporting the body to somewhere else.

[The song Eternal Silence is dedicated.]

So love is in the air. Love is even in hatred. An opposite to my light/happiness and darkness/sadness principle(where light prevails from darkness, there can be no light if darkness in the first place does not exist). If I have time, I will write on this happiness and sadness principle of mine in my point of view. It's related to the neutral state or zero position theory of mine. Comparable to Mathematics' Integer topic.

These are a few posts that Stresser had written in his younger days, few years back using Friendster blog. They are See What People Care About You(And A Lil Peace), War And Peace, Civil War and Psychological & Physical Destruction. And so that kind of posts will be revolutionized here from now onwards.

Symbol of Peace and symbol of F* Away.

Some people are still good, some people are stressed and some people are ignorant. As you know, we are facing a somewhat tight and tough period with the economy. Inflation. High demand. Low supply. Depreciation. The most significant being the hike in the price of fuel. I am really hit by this, ya know. I don't have any income I don't pay for the fuel I don't own a vehicle but I drive my mother's car and looking at the fuel level drop so significantly fast as if the car drinks fuel like water. And ya, the metre and price at the petrol station as you insert the nozzle into the refueling chamber and pull the trigger. RM2.70 per litre. RM70+ for a full tank pump of 26litres. I have paramount passion in driving and flying you know, and both activity eats petroleum.

So back to topic, with this bad time with our wallets some people actually manage to control the price and bring in smiles and true service to their customers. Some the other way but they are not at fault. I have this experience with a chicken rice stall near my home. Price of rice is also out of control. She actually manages to keep her cool and still being able to offer complimentary add-ons or give discounts. And she's super busy chopping the chicken with the sharp cleaver. Let's say I'm not relating this to the economy. I'd say this is good customer service and true Malaysian hospitality that the whole wide world has boasted of.

I like this quote in which God said, "Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. And prepare your future without fear". I forgot what this got to do with my Global Peace topic here. The reason something shouldn't be left in draft for too long...

So, back to land and sea.

Earth Temperamental Crisis.

A month ago, our Earth saw Myanmar devastated by Cyclone Nargis. So many lives were lost and homes were brought to their rooftops on ground zero. Just not too soon enough, massive earthquake shook Szechuan in China and that's far from over, there were aftershocks which were just as destructive as any earthquake. huh. Angry Earth, that's what I call it. Like scaps off the Earth's skin layer dry enough to shed. Global warming.

Terrorist threats. Supposedly "goodwill force" threatening to intervene in others' administration, power struggle and security. Bombings in Iraq, far from any ending. wth political struggle and fight in Malaysia. Teenagers' angst-ridden massacre at schools. Social divide. Outdated culture civilisation with non-scientific beliefs which is causing the AIDS/HIV spread unstoppable. Horrible, I read one news that aid workers who were sent to provide relief to famine, poverty and broken homes were committing sexual crimes onto the less fortunates, who were as young as nine. That's called humanity, the range of inhumanness.

There's also the nuke war. No, you're not allowed to use them nuclear bombs anymore. So many countries now are investing in these weapons of mass destruction. And there's a country which used it back in the WWII and they advocate on not making them but they themselves have a great storage of them. Yet they are going all around the world threatening to dispose off diplomacy cut off economy ties and declare "I don't like your country" to the others who research and manufacture. Nuclear bomb only looks good in the movies and games.heh

[Cranberries' Zombie track is dedicated.]

Check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sjSHazjrWg
Cat Stevens - Peace Train

He's converted already and now he is Yusuf Islam, singing the same song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7wEctHyuc0&feature=related

Music has another purpose huh. It could educate and serve people's faith. Music is very powerful. I'd claim god is music. music is god. heh. Yeah, people do make a change either through or by music. Some people go to the extreme. Some people use it to convey messages. Superb impregnable form of expression. I'd say, music is sound. We use sound to communicate like we use our mouth to talk. So music to express. NOT NOISE(if u play Westlife/Beethoven/Ricky Martin/Nelly Furtado simultaneously u get Rock genre, and people label it as "noise").

If you have like so much time like around 45 minutes of free time, you can watch this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pcgCdn8I8kU&feature=related

Blend of faith and belief.

You can feel the reason. The true conscience behind faith. The real purpose of one embracing a religion to gain faith and show thankfulness. This is not anymore the era of the crusades where people fight to spread religion. Wake up. You can have 100 million people of a religion but do you people do or practise the right thing? I found that the key is love. What's the point of being one in a majority with the aim to eradicate the other minority. Survival of the fittest does not apply in love, at least to me. (ok dun consider dating a girl or mating ok..that's a bit different)

In one of Yusuf Islam's spiritual songs, he sings "How great the beauty of the Earth and the creatures who dwell on her" in God Is The Light. How beautiful we are only to be polluted by our own deeds. It's just a matter of realisation. It's either we insist on doing it wrong because we know it's not right but it feels good or we take time to open our eyes, as a matter of time.

I still stick strongly to Buddhism principles(but I don't perfectly abide by the precepts). My aunt is always my source of information and knowledge on this religion. I've always been very interested in principles ever since my grandfather's soul departed from his body. I have this book which i want to continue reading(but it's a bit boring in the way the stories are being told) that is Dying To Live: The role of Kamma in Dying and Rebirth. Sounds interesting? The unattainable answers are being told in this prophecy-like teaching using stories and excerpts from Vinaya Pitaka and Abhidhamma Pitaka. Sounds familiar? Yeah, hell.. they were mentioned in the Sejarah higher secondary textbooks.

So...Alright...Finally...The end of some scribbling.

Trying here to unclog and release most valuable thoughts kept in my head because time is running out. The clock doesn't stop for us to make decisions so we just have to move on and live with it. Lest the future holds no spare time for me to connect to you interested and interesting readers.

[The songs For The Love Of God and Home Sweet Home are dedicated...]