99. So, I Ran

Personal

I'm 20. And I ran my first marathon in my life. I mean, half marathon hah.

Half marathon is 21km.

It's from Queensbay until some distance pass the midspan of bridge and then u-turn back up to some distance near E-Gate. From there straight up to the place where the run started as finishing line.

Gruesome. Grueling. Groovy. G...on the spot.

Pushing my own limits. Abusing my own feet as I pushed my soul harder. Never had this tough and long run before in my life. It was so mental. I had my heart doing most of the work by thinking of the support that I've had. emotional haha. I told my legs, "hold on don't give up you can do it". Sorry feet. It was a torture and nightmare.

I totally underestimated the route on the map and the distance in number.

It was endless as I saw the sea of heads and double the number, of legs heading towards blurry. It was so far that the cold, breezy and misty air had made a wall of clouding the vision of the journey. And then it rained god-like heavy.

I'm not sure if anyone caught me gulping the rainwater to drink. I think I was looking like goldfishes gasping for air. The rain played a very friendly role in cooling down tremendously my body to the point I didn't have to to keep going to the water station for hydration. Besides that, it's to be blamed for drenching my whole body. I threw away my socks halfway. It was a bad load soaking up so much water and kept getting rolled under my feet.

Push and push.

This is it.



It was uploaded into the Penang Bridge International Marathon website.

I edited just for my part. Courtesy of PBIM.

Ah Hooi's 2nd time running this big event and he did it in 2 hours and 41 minutes time. Kudos. We survived too.

More trainings on the way.


This is a picture of me with the finisher's medal.

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Nope, haven't uploaded.

98. Progress Run 3 ~Rekindled

Personal

References
Run 1 (30th October) - http://youareinmydream.blogspot.com/2010/10/96-progress-run.html
Run 2 (14 October) - http://youareinmydream.blogspot.com/2010/11/97-progress-run-2-fail.html

Exercise Report/Summary

Day: Wednesday
Date: 17th November 2010
Time: 1900 hours
Weather: Cool and breezy
Temperature: n/a
Terrain: Tarred road

Location: Nilai
Traffic: Rare
Start: Behind Block D
Course: Back and forth a single straight road between Block D and E
Finish: Behind Block D

Start time: ~1900 hours
Finish time: ~1940 hours

Distance*: 6.3 km
Time*: 37.22.64 mins
Average speed*: 10.1 km/h
Maximum speed*: 16.8 km/h

[*recorded by my phone Fitness application]

Remarks:
1. The run started in the evening where the sun was setting. After the first 15 minutes the lamp posts became the only source of light for the road.
2. Road is wet after a course of drizzle an hour before.
3. The course is level; no uphills or downhills. Only back and forth a road of about 150m in length.
4. The wind is breezy and cool for most of the time which helped in cooling and providing positive airflow for breathing.
5. Pre-exercise diet: Water and half piece of bun from Cinnabon
6. Post-exercise diet: Some kolo mee from Kuching and less than 100ml of Soya milk. Dinner: Neslo and sandwich set (egg+meat+cheese+sausage+fries)

Comments:

This is the coolest ever run besides the events that I have participated in my life. Especially falling upset towards my previous training 4 days ago.

I beat the Run 2's 2.9km in ~16 minutes (ahead by ~3minutes) and at least pushed further to beat Run 1's 5.7km in ~33 minutes (1 minute difference).

But I still can't believe it how good in form I was despite having improperly hydrated in the first run record because it was in the morning I'd not taken much food for energy, the course is hilly and traffic was mild. And that time the sun was rising. This latest run I had was absolutely on straight and level terrain and there is no heat from the sun at all. It was rather boring and there was no variation. The only motivation I had was to kept looking at my stopwatch.

If it was in the morning, I believe I would have continued on the exercise at least until 10-12 km. As my breathing and energy level were in a very good form. Hydration was adequate from the drinking in the day. Food consumption was complete. I was just not motivated to keep running until 8 o'clock at night. It was a run in blindness. Only dim lamp posts and occasional passing-by cars' headlights glaring.

Note: These run progresses are for tests of performance only. Not graded for any use or competition. The Penang Bridge Marathon which I will be participating is 21km in distance to run for my half-marathon category which I selected. Satch blesses I will complete the run gracefully. Earning a podium position is not much of concern but it is the motivation, spirit and faith in finishing well the course and enjoying it as well. A 3 and a half hours limit will be a test to earning a finisher's medal. A 20th place would secure a Bronze medal. bzzt.

Get ready.

Theme song: Megadeth - High Speed Dirt and Hangar 18

97. Progress - Run 2 ~FAIL

Personal

Refer to http://youareinmydream.blogspot.com/2010/10/96-progress-run.html for a splendid previous record.

Exercise Report/Summary

Day: Sunday
Date: 14th November 2010
Time: 0935 hours
Weather: Sunny and breezy
Temperature: n/a
Terrain: Tarred road and pavement grass ground

Location: Nilai
Traffic: Slightly regular
Start: Same to Run 1
Course: n/a
Finish: n/a

Start time: 0945 hours
Finish time: ~1010 hours

Distance*: 2.9 km
Time*: 19.17.56 mins
Average speed*: 9.1 km/h
Maximum speed*: 19.5 km/h

[*recorded by my phone Fitness application]

Remarks:
1. Weather was exceptionally fine.
2. Sunny weather is great but the heat seemed to drain energy fast and the glare of the morning sun is unbearable at times.
3. Cool and breezy wind blowing helps a lot in cooling.
4. Water bottle is brought along this time. Hydration became convenient and regular.
5. Pre-exercise diet: Banana and biscuits
6. Post-exercise diet: Banana, soya milk and cork flakes cereal

Comments:
I am very disappointed and upset with this latest performance. I would rather not record this at all but that's not the point anymore for progress checks. This would serve me as a reminder and a history of a bad result. I could not even last until at least the distance covered in the previous run. I stopped at the time the time record was taken and then I attempted to continue but to no avail. I stopped again just after 2 minutes.

I was prepared. To improve on my performance as I brought with me a bottle of water. I think, it became a burden to hold it through out the course. I believe I ran out of phase and totally lost my rhythm in the energy consumption and breathing right after I was juggling running and drinking at the same time. Basically, I lost coordination with my steps and breathing when I shifted my attention to opening the bottle cap. The first time was not so bad. I think the second attempt to drink when I was already gasping for more air made me stop for a few seconds to drink and swallow.

After that, I just felt like I lost a lot of energy. The feeling of lazy legs surfaced. Eyes went into sleepy mode. I lost my concentration too. I kept thinking, how am I going to make it this time? I could not even hit 5km, let alone 10km.

I list down here the possible causes which I think are the reasons why I could not perform:
1. Serious lack of sleep
2. Heavy gym work out the day before
3. Heat from the sunny weather
4. Lack of regular training
5. Holding a bottle of water - which added weight and removed the freedom of movement of my arms
6. Had been recently working out on creatine supplement

No.1 factor is a serious detriment. I admit on that that I practically didn't sleep proper hours in the few nights before the run. Rather, I didn't sleep during the nights all only 2-4 hours of naps in the day. This involves time and work management.

The gym workout which I did the day before was a little over the regular repetitions and resistances. I pushed harder than before especially a lot on the quadriceps and hamstrings exercises. I reckon I have not recovered at all after such strenuous activity. I am not quite sure if I have actually converted an pro-endurance regime to strength-building. Plus the creatine-based supplement for muscle building.

Not sure though if that poses any difference in this small scale of training.

The weather is not really hot. It's just clear sky in the morning. Would not blame the heat generally though. It's rather breezy. I feel it's the combination of lack of sleep and the glare of the sun which made me feeling drowsy and lazy.

Holding the bottle. You tell me. The splashing of the water. The centrifugal force acting on the water. The grip on the bottle. It's a 600ml bottle. I actually left it at one spot when I felt that I could not continue anymore holding it for long period. And then when I made a turn-back I recollected it. That was already after I gave up.

Then I had to walk back home which took me almost 1 hour.

Upset.

96. Progress - Run

Personal

Exercise Report/Summary

Day: Saturday
Date: 30th October 2010
Time: 0900 hours
Weather: Wet - Light drizzling during start
Temperature: 20 °C - by feeling only
Terrain: Tarred road and pavement grass ground

Location: Nilai
Traffic: Rare but occasionally mild ~1 vehicle every 3 minutes
Start: ~150m before INTI entrance
Course: Along the road up to entrance of Nilai Springs Resort then reverse until halfway
Finish: Entrance of Taman Melati main road

Start time: ~0910 hours
Finish time: ~0940 hours

Distance*: 5.7 km
Time*: 34:43.60 mins
Average speed*: 9.9 km/h

(I think it's about ~8km/h)

Maximum speed*: 15.1 km/h

[*recorded by my phone Fitness application]

Remarks:
1. Weather was cold and wet so I wore a windbreaker which also helped in warming up.
2. Jacket was removed after feeling a lack of ventilation on my body.
3. The whole course of exercise was without proper hydration - citing the fact that if I were to had some water I would had covered a longer distance at a more consistent speed.
4. No smoking
5. No alcohol
6. No supplements
7. No medication.
8. Pre-exercise diet: A cup of Milk (~6 - 10g of protein) and 3 pieces of Domino's Cinnamon Stix
9. Post-exercise diet: Bread, cheesy baked beans and jambu air

Comments:

Wet weather did not deter me from training. I almost gave up actually at 8am in the morning when I looked at the sky and feel the wind it had not rained yet meaning it wanted to rain later. I assumed that it's going to rain and stop by 8am by comparing with the other days before this day. Went out the first time and felt that the drizzle was too heavy and I did not want to run with my feet soaked wet and especially with having sweaty skin wetted with cold rain water. Stayed back in the house waiting and took a nap, almost making my way back to the bed as a surrender to the weather. But I could not let go of the great opportunity and time to exercise.

Cold wind coupled with the lack of proper sleep time (5 hours only) made me felt sleepy while walking on the way to the course. Jacket helped protect from cold temperature, rain water, cold wind and keep warm.

Lower legs were not in best condition though due to ice-skating first time on the previous night. But the whole course was great. Smooth progress and breathing was properly coordinated for most of the time except during gulping saliva for hydration and inhaling hard to retain the nasal mucous in cavity.

After stopping the exercise I walked back to home. It took me around 30 minutes to reach at a paced walking speed. That is equivalent to walking back and forth PFS and CGL 4 times or 3 days worth of walking back (grandpa house) from school calorie burnt.

Fun sake yeah.

Theme music feeling: Satch Boogie

Credits: Adidas Performance. Nike Pro. bzzzzt materialistic

95. Snakes In The Rough

Personal/Ideals

Welcome again.

It seems that filefactory does not have music widget anymore so kinda if you wana listen to that song you can download it by clicking. mmm it could be illegal already to put other songs for download. like free. bad

I would like to present to you my latest endeavour in improvising. It's not a complete and well prepared recording. It's an improvised recording of an improvisation.

The gears and materials used:
1. Sony Ericsson W580 - sound recorder
2. Squier Telecaster
3. Marshall MG10CD
4. USB cable
5. MIKSOFT Mobile AMR Converter
6. Guitarpro 5.2
7. Hoobastank - The Reason ver2 (from Ultimate Guitar website)
8. yeah my laptop and windows XP @#$%^

Just for the fun of details. Use any guitar any amp anything. Keep the ruggedness.

So yeah, I like these few notes which you play together and they sound like snake charm. And they can be used to improvise. And so I decided to randomly record what I can do with these few notes with a drums backing track, an I recently started doing with. It's fun.

1. I use Hoobastank - The Reason guitarpro drums track as my backing. Set to 50% tempo

2. I put my amp in gain. Cos i want the gain feeling in my guitar sound. yer know like rock solo

If you already feel bored, go to http://www.ultimate-guitar.tv/guitar_lessons/guitar_world_paul_gilbert_presents_shred_alert.html where you can learn snake-charming tunes. It's a different style of snake-charming though and presented in a different key.

Hooi has listened and tested out my notes and he identified it as part of the Gmin scale. Yes, indeed I use G as my primary key, the root which the improvisation is based on.

So, just move on to my filefactory and play my mini demo.

Things I would like to point out; Of course I will never keep silent on my own work. Ok cool 7mins long with slow drum beats it's rather sleep-charming actually. In fact, I didn't actually base my improvisation on snake-charming melody along the track. I altered naturally and intrinsically when I chose to base it in the key of G. Somewhat gypsy-ish-deserty-mystery sound.

Lack of dynamics: I could have do more tremolos, bending and sliding, legato or any other forms. I was concentrating on the beat so I ended up staying static on individual notes. And also thinking ahead of the notes and their positions to play. Because I didn't learn up the scale and the positions, otherwise it would have been easier and maybe juicier...

Lack of rhythm: Not so bad rhythm because it's me and the preset drums track. It's lack of the rhythmic articulation of my playing. Messy and not structured. I will improve on this. Also, because I was concentrating on the fretboard.

Sloppy: Obviously yes. Choppingly no. They could be heard as mistakes clearly mishandling the strings. Or just mere improvised dynamics. Chop. Scrape. Sloppy flick. Dirty notes. Works both ways. Just feel differently.

Other than that you give your comments I hope can work it out in my subsequent playing.

The final eighth of the song which you can spot some smells-like-shredding but fail-type is just some getting high and adventurous try-out on shredding tune. It's basically and usually for me to just play 3 notes per string (usually 2 strings) fast either chromatically or just randomly or any notes I happen to spot deem to be the notes in the scale.

"if you get the note wrong, get the next note right" haha this is easily true. Or rather, get your feel right.

Thanks anyways for any attention spilled here.

94. Tribute

Ideals

Just a tribute.

Thanks to Hooi for referring me to this song.

And it so happens that these comments touch my soul. Knowing that this song is quite somewhat dedicated to some kind of desperado in which I felt some similarity with in myself. Just like what parents or old wise grandparents would say to their children.

And the last comment below amazingly fit what I felt. heh. Anyways, thank you all. I'm still alive.

musemorris
~YOU MUST be kidding? You guys must be the REAL Eagles?! FANTASTIC! Dedicated to our beloved son Jarrod Ryan ~ June 10, 1987 ~ April 4th, 1991!


KumarsDad
~What a beautiful song! I dedicate it to my son Jared. Your Mom and I really miss you.Gone but never forgotten.RIP 10/18/1990-04/08/2009

mlee86a
~This song is for the late Jennifer Vincent who dearly loved the Eagles and especially this song.  I will always remember her with this wonderful song.

bubbles9084
~omg i really needed to hear this :') my brother was 23 when he died in a car accident this was his absolute favorite song and his birthday is october 16th and he pasted on october 20th i really love this song and it helps me get true the day :) thank you :')

TheGrimRomance
~its amazing how this song fits me. x)) *2 thumbs up!*

93. Joga Bonito

Ideals/Personal

Beautiful game.

Balls.

Sports.

Out to be disposed.

In response to Foot to your Ball.

92. Colours of Love

Ideals/Personal

This is again, love. Animal love. Inter-species love. Inter-color love. Definitely not your kind of love.
These animals do not have any faith. Nor any belief. At least they do not speak it out and brag about it like us humans. They do not come to us for refuge in need of a god. They just make good companies. I think I'm speaking of an example which is dogs. Others...they make good fried food or roasted.

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I actually really do not mind about colour and races at all. But you may see me hanging out only with a bunch of fair-skinned friends of Chinese ethnicity wherever. At least most of the time. Maybe there's some comfort. I am very sure of that which most of you people out there tend to stick to the group with similar tones. I know it's a very ignorant thing as pointed out by a foreigner friend who commented in Facebook.

Then I beg to differ for my part. I may be hypocritical at my choices of answers. But here I am to point it out the things I look for when joining activities and becoming friends. Or at least people who are worth to mix around with without discriminating superficial characteristics.

Who the hell cares..I mean I don't care, really. Of where you come from or what kind of family background. Just don't bring bombs and don't push drugs to me.

Well, let's start from day one of life. First, I was born and raised in Penang. Obviously, you can see more fair-skinned Chinese descendants around. But national statistics show the population number otherwise. Never mind that. And growing up in the vicinity with more Chinese friends and neighbours it's not unusual to mix around more with Chinese people especially in school. But come on, f* this. You cannot force a nation to deliberately cultivate 1M*sia by..what?..you wana see every group of people walking around having at least 1 Chinese, 1 Malay and 1 Indian?
Let it be natural. All the while it has been natural. Nevertheless it's a result of what colonialism had done to our country in the past. But past is not to be taken as blame. Learn.

So, in my schooling years I had never choose friends by skin. I have many kinds of friends. Malay or Indian. They are still people. Why do I only have that few friends from those races. It's because they are that few in my place. You don't expect me to dig and search for non-Chinese friends so I practise equality. Of friendship.

Now that I'm in MIAT, I can tell you I'm studying in a place of an opposite population number of schoolmates to what I had before in MIAT. What now, you want me to befriend and mix with the whole school to show that I am not racist? Jonathan is the only Chinese in my class. And yes the others are friends nevertheless.

I want to point out the similarity in the friends that I have by comparing now and then (Free School). Let's say I have 5 friends whom I mix around with in the old days - 4 Chinese 1 Indian. Let's compare with now with the same total of mixing - 4 Malay 1 Chinese. So what the hell.

Let me also point this out on why do I tend to only stick to certain groups especially when they are Chinese people in forming a project group, staying together or just plain mixing. This is the part where I seek "comfort" in joining people. The comfort that is being termed ignorant from outside. I would really call this human tendencies. To achieve an equilibrium of satisfaction both to the heart and mind.

1. It's easy. I know the person's capability so it's easier to work together.
2. We're close and old friends.
3. Communication - English or Hokkien. Seriously haha. See, I tend to mix with people who regularly/tend to speak the English language fluently/poorly. And Hokkien. But there's a lot of lalas who speak hokkien in Penang I can't help it (out of topic).
4. Culture and Practices. This aspect covers a huge area. I am only going to point out some of the subconscious sub-aspects. Food - Halal/Non-Halal. And it's in tandem with respect even if someone says it's ok. Then I guess prayers is not really a problem because I didn't experience it but I heard of it as one. And what not that you may be thinking of by growing up in a Chinese family. You hear all sorts of things about other people.
5. Mind block.
6. Oh yeah this is for in M*sia in religion matters. This is a latent issue. Especially on marriages. Not about the food or dogs.

So you can blame human tendencies and let the politicians be the scapegoats. Other than that, why do we all have to discriminate one another. I know, this is already a very hard to treat situation already in our country. Many aspects and events were involved in the conception of such mentality. It's the war of the people and land. Modernly termed, business/money matters. One leads to another, they are not really independent. Refusal to change. Fear of losing. Strong and faithful in protecting rights. The will to save the heritage. Selfishness is easily just the factual cause.

Fundamental. Humans have settled and have been segregated into many different regions on Earth. From there, humans do changes and advance. To conquer. To win. To prosper. To live and be "happy". Meaning, to achieve goals and become satisfied in relation to their expectations.

That is a digress into the elements which are dated B.C. hah


Back to the topic of me being not racist.

I don't have to actually fight to say that I am not racist. That is just up to the way people see, judge and brand me. If I have 10 Chinese friends and 1 Malay friend so I'm racist then so be it the person likes to see people with numbers. If he sees that I have 1 Chinese friend and 10 Malay friends and thinks that I am stupid and betraying my race then he is really shallow and someone who I think is the real racist in my opinion. Et cetera.

There is really no point in seeing the different colours of the people in making decisions other than in the pointed out isolated cases.

When you're playing games or making plans, you look for people with the appropriate skills and attitude. In any sports I don't look for to choose particularly who I want to play with. It is just general that I want to play with people who are in a similar level of skills and fitness so I feel comfortable. ah this is a bit weird but it's ok..it is something to do with choosing people.

I fail in finding out how and why did I even bring this topic up. The photos of the plush toys gave out so many thoughts.

Here it is on love, human tendency appears again in love choices. I believe they are options and preferences. Take for example Chinese parents would advise their children not to marry black people. It's just weird. I believe it's just choices. One may think "wah so black I don't want". Yes, that's a choice. Not any racism. This does not apply though to people who really objects on interracial marriages. I believe it's human tendency to seek for comfort.

It's easy to fall in love. Physique. Face. Tonal characteristics. Personality. Behaviour. Thought. Creativity. Intelligence. So many aspects in gaining love. Note the first 3 points I write are actually the most common things people first look at when looking for mates. Basically, they mean looks. I forgot to add one more. Wealth, in terms of money matters. It's a commercialised world after all.

I think I quite have lost them the points I want to write about. But I believe again, I write enough for now. Boredom lingers starting from the very first sentence.
See, the dolphin has eaten the koala's head off already. Told you not to leave cute things behind...

And...

[DOG - GOD] ~ "funny" reversal ahha. can get condemned. but are both loving and caring existences.

91. Foot to Your Ball

Personal

Well, let's see.

In need of maintenance.

Something for the World Cup football season. My amateur start-ups haha. Economical and simple.

The boots. It's a Topper. Model is Brazil..should be.

Nike T90 Classic keeper's gloves. No, not kitchen mitts.

Ah..something I wanted to get ever since my love for the football game was really conceived in year 2002. Then I get it 7 years later. At discounted price. With the colour I'd been eyeing ever since. And ever since, I didn't grow any much taller to be an efficient goalkeeper. A well-respected position. Supposedly incredible in reflexes and agility.

And this is the latest in the family. Mercurial Veer. Caps earned in Georgetown, Sepang and nilai.

This is actually my 4th football purchased. First one is red. It was bought like 10 years ago and it bears the emblem of Mexico football club...yeah..they just beat France 0-2. 2nd one in black, came 1 or 2 years after that. It was under Jon's care when he claimed his dog has caused the ball to rupture and rendered unserviceable. I didn't get to say goodbye. And yeah Jon, you're still keeping my Real Madrid Siemens Mobile jersey.wooo

Lazy to take them photos of the balls. 3rd ball in gold, is an imitation design (only the looks not the construction) of the Teamgeist of World Cup 2006 Germany official matchball.

Hmm..have been getting Nike products already. I'd always been against Nike products because they are too simple and they cost so much. Yer know..just a tick. But recently they have a lot of designs that are both simple and elegantly great.

I set a new target on a Nike sweatshirt. Termed combatant, with Rooney blazing in the promotional poster. Never mind. I might wana get it for my own birthday present haha.

Say, humans are easily materialistic. I'm easily one. As simple as this, I see it I like it I get it if I can afford it. Less research. Just wraps the heart in comfort. Then of course think of the usage.

Yer see I like sports a lot. Especially football. I adore and respect the sport. I like the gameplay and how the players are trained to play with the ball. Strategy playing of course is not my cup of coffee but it's also highly commendable. Well as for me physically I just like to kick it and see how it takes on flight. Of course teamplay is definitely very fascinating.

Kick it. Bend it some other day.

90. This is Love

Personal

But not your kind of love.

Marsupial love haha. I'm actually very fond of collecting and displaying them plush toys. Especially these adorable wombats and koala bear from Australia. My uncle who lives there bought all of them. The left one is at least 10 years old already. The right one is fresh. It just came to my home last year after I "jokingly" requested my uncle to get one.

This one was taken by my brother with the arrow signs drawn in Paint.


I like arranging them in awkward ways. I avoided mating positions.

Hi

89. Feel Good

Ideals/Personal

Woohoo. 2 years have passed and I reach 89 posts. Some I would say would have changed blog sites in 2 years at this rate. Nahh I'm too lazy to change a site. Not for any promotional purpose. Even for motivational reason I'm just too lazy. It doesn't matter.

I have to preach on this. On behalf of Stressm but not a Stressm post.

Feeling good is important in life.

It's natural. We keep striving to feel good. After feeling good you will feel bad and you will want to feel good again. That's what keep life moving. It's not wrong or bad when complacency strikes. Life is a constant cycle of events and they just ricochet away if it's not right.

But let's not leap into idleness.

(I want to admit that the Napoleon's newsletter and Thought of the Day are the few resources of lessons in life I learn from.)


Let's just take life as life. I don't mind or care if God intervenes or involves himself. I'm putting our human life as natural as a separate entity on Earth.

Look at humans. So much advancement since the cave dwellings. We are building bombs now.

Well, it's just us. We learn and suffer and at times we succeed. This is just the norm. Why can't we just live it. Yeah add spices here and all over to make all of us feel good. My point here is, "don't worry, be happy".

I understand that I might just drop dead the very next moment after finishing off this sentence. Then I didn't so I cherish. Until I'm struck then I will complain and cry in pain and vain. That's just life isn't it. No one prepares us to cope with all emotional situations.

The people in the war. The people in poverty. The people in the riches. The people affected by Earth's catastrophes. I appreciate all of them and I feel their existence. I just don't have any better media to convey it. I only have the thought in my mind. Well, cos I never go through their experiences.

I may sound hypocritical but then I'm just an average young man who likes to express and then sit back and relax. Unless there is a sudden emergency which I have to pack my valuable belongings and enter the mercenary.

So my point "Don't worry, be happy" strikes again. You have what you have now. You get what you want later. You enjoy what you have. You work for what you want. It all comes to an end. Accomplishing life. Be it, dissipate into thin air or join the Earth and soil after death we will identify it then.

But no one has ever come back to tell us about it. In my opinion, that is actually the best thing to do after death. Don't get attached with what we've left. I wonder what will happen if really someone comes back and tells us the story of afterlife. Curiosity kills the cat.

But I have an ambition of visiting life again after death. I would like to see what people do with my legacy. Or if there's anyone playing some sad solo over my coffin. Maybe my body will just be buried somewhere 6-feet-under that would be your great-grandchild's backyard garden.

And by luck I found this quote over the websites.

"Enthusiasm with error is more acceptable than indifference with perfection." — J. Dinneen

How would you define it?

For me, it comes to me in many aspects. It deals with some attitude some people have. It deals with passion. It deals with life.

Of course having said that I mean that I had some experiences with what I've come across. Especially through teenage, studies and upcoming career life. We will all encounter these and managed somehow to survive.

It's just life. You wana feel good, you do it your way. And make sure you do not mess with others. Breach of principles and selfishness are what get into someone's goodwill. er..hmm..I mean someone who tries to be nice when provoked will become not nice. It gets into his nerves and induces discomfort.

But then again, it's one's choice to be angered or emotionally affected. I am not going write any more here as I am touching the topic of "choice".

I think my long-windedness only means "I want to feel good". That should be one of everybody's goal everyday to be achieved. You don't want to go to bed every night or day(night-shift) with the thinking "I screwed" unless you just had sex.

Applying some Buddhism and teachings on life and death, that's not wholesome. We all want to die peacefull and wholesomely. Good karma. Have a nice day, humans.

88. Escape

Personal/Ideals

Once again, I will be most probably back for holidays. At least 7 weeks from now.

There was once if you could ever recall I said about being content, satisfied etc after having so much fun. I beg to differ now.

One is never enough of holidays. One will never get enough. One will forever need some holidays. Free time. Quality time to be spent not on work.

Because I am in one of the levels of hell which offers endless stress and work. No, I don't mean the lecturers or the industry is of hell materials. It's just me in my own realm in the background of this 3D world. Let's not take it to extent of the universe.

So yeah. Tiredness. Fatigue and Stress. Health deterioration. Ability to make wise and proper decision. They suffer. It's a gradient. Negative or positive depends on your x-y entries. Proportional if not irregular. But definitely it's inclined towards death.

I want to kick balls. I want to smash cocks. I want to cut through the chlorinated waves.
I need dynamic fresh air. Movement. Outdoor.

When I am back I am gona hug my mumy, shake my papa's hands and snatch the mercedes C-Class* from my brother. Gona savour my aunt's homecooking, treat to buffet and more treats. And the machas and humans other than mentioned above, let's kick ass and burn some fuel while it is available to us.

And jam some juicy blues.


*proton saga - just to attract certain chicks attention

87. Kirchoff in Action

Personal/Study

There's actually plenty of electricity study materials that I would like to share and write about here. Either really nerd study material or life-joy-fun-crap-fun post.

So I've been going through some manuals and we're going to select a diagram for an assignment.

Suddenly this symbol appear. Wow after so many years since looking at electrical circuits I've never asked anyone or myself on this symbol. Or rather I've never come across it.

First thought is that it looks very similar to capacitor. But definitely I don't think so.

mmmm...

Just some info related to the symbol. It's in a temperature regulator circuit in an air-conditioning system of B737-200 aircraft.

Jun Guan, go go go go find it out. I've asked Joel too. Negative. Asked my brother, supposedly their senior sifu in the field...have not given me a reply.

Have fun. I am going to give you the answer after consulting my lecturer.

86. HTIAF EHT PEEK

Personal/Ideals

houh

hoho competent car driver's license here I come. My "P" just expired less than 24 hours ago.

I am the friendly and receiving kind. The homely and a bit caring.

Thus, the list of my friends as visitors to my rented house in Nilai as correct as of 7th of March 2010. [excluding uni-mates and parents/relatives]
1. T M J
2. Cyn
3. Wheen
4. Jason
5. NKY
6. Hooi

And the overnight hall of fame
1. T M J
2. Wheen
3. Jason
4. Hooi

They may sound gay because if any random female entry we'll all be in lock-up ready for 20 strokes of rotan. mmm

So far so good Arsenal FC. Show what these young players can do in the ultra tough competition of Barclay's English Premier League. Even without their Dutch shooter, Persie. arh..kita punya sebaya Aaron Ramsey patah kaki..sungguh sedih. Faith be kept.

85. Gun, for Fun

Personal/Ideals

[Picture from googling]

[of my closet, Home kit coming soon]

Keep The Faith

Guns N' Roses - Two revolvers pointing at each other with rose flowers coiled around

What is the significance?

Rock and roll.

For fun purpose, I brought up a some random defining thinking. @#$%^ Figure out what made the rockers and rollers think of the name which consists of guns and roses. oh right, I read before that it was the name of the members of L.A. Guns and Hollywood Rose namely, Tracii Guns and Axl Rose (almighty).

Think again, it's somewhat a great match. The logo is very beautiful. The colour of the gun and the red of rose also show some contrasted perception. A rose, so beautiful and static. The gun so powerful and dynamic, it can shoot. A peaceful idea in contrast to the violence-ridden invention respectively.

But they share something in common. Nothing "nice" lasts forever.

The rose portrayed some peace but it also has its thorns in which it symbolizes "war->engage" button. And so the gun is also used in wars. However it has 2 functions; pull the trigger to start the war/end the peace or to end the war/start the peace.

..Even though the metal of the gun lasts quite some time heh..

Anyway, gun can be seen as the hard and rose the soft elements of Guns N' Roses.

Pore over the words from the song Civil War.
"
Look at your young men fighting
Look at your women crying
Look at your young men dying
The way they've always done before

Look at the hate we're breeding
Look at the fear we're feeding
Look at the lives we're leading
The way we've always done before

My hands are tied
The billions shift from side to side
And the wars go on with brainwashed pride
For the love of God and our human rights
And all these things are swept aside
By bloody hands time can't deny
And are washed away by your genocide
And history hides the lies of our civil wars

D'you wear a black armband
When they shot the man
Who said "Peace could last forever"
And in my first memories
They shot Kennedy
I went numb when I learned to see
So I never fell for Vietnam
We got the wall of D.C. to remind us all
That you can't trust freedom
When it's not in your hands
When everybody's fightin'
For their promised land

And
I don't need your civil war
It feeds the rich while it buries the poor
Your power hungry sellin' soldiers
In a human grocery store
Ain't that fresh
I don't need your civil war

Look at the shoes your filling
Look at the blood we're spilling
Look at the world we're killing
The way we've always done before
Look in the doubt we've wallowed
Look at the leaders we've followed
Look at the lies we've swallowed
And I don't want to hear no more

My hands are tied
For all I've seen has changed my mind
But still the wars go on as the years go by
With no love of God or human rights
'Cause all these dreams are swept aside
By bloody hands of the hypnotized
Who carry the cross of homicide
And history bears the scars of our civil wars

~We practice selective annihilation of mayors
And government officials
For example to create a vacuum
Then we fill that vacuum
As popular war advances
Peace is closer~

I don't need your civil war
It feeds the rich while it buries the poor
Your power hungry sellin' soldiers
In a human grocery store
Ain't that fresh
And I don't need your civil war
I don't need your civil war
I don't need your civil war
Your power hungry sellin' soldiers
In a human grocery store
Ain't that fresh
I don't need your civil war
I don't need one more war

I don't need one more war
Whaz so civil 'bout war anyway
"

That is just as civil as our country. Sorry-asses.. no comments

I've highlighted on this song before 5 years ago in my friendster blog haha if you could find it.

Whatever it is, just carry on with life.

"The show must go on"~Queen

[No guns on this one, another one has]

84. Not New

Personal

Nothing much, for now. Let's just let it be.
syiok sendiri sajalah kalau tiada pembaca haha

It's a nice number anyway. 2010. Two zero one zero. Twenty-ten. Two thousand ten. Dua ribu sepuluh.

The new year countdown and activity was done away from home again. No not outside Penang or where I study. The party has dwindled down to 3 persons only namely Wheen, Hooi and I myself. It's the 3rd friendly New Year gathering.

Safely saying, we're at Queensbay all 3 times before the great overnight. All 3 nights with fireworks banging the sky. All 3 nights witnessing infestation ball-loose lala music on-stage. Bear with them we just want to spectate the firework display. Not so spectacular and big this time for the year 2010.

"wahh hao piao liang de" - "wuuahhhhhh" - "hepi niu yerrrrr"

For the year 2011, if I am at back at Penang I am going to spend it with my family. Or take them out to somewhere kia kia.. And I would like to be maybe at G-Spot..for some new year countdown gig I suppose. Anywhere to chill out and listen to good r e a l music.
My wombats usher you. To a great and a bang bang new year. Captured by my brother. resized by me.

An awkward melancholic moment at Manhattan Fish Market. Our super filling final meal of the year 2009. We were eating the ice-cream and the ambience then was not quite noisy anymore. The radio player is playing Celine Dion's Because You Loved Me. ...the feeling of being lonely suddenly rose. We're all single. So rap it...

We had some nice blues-jamming. Just natural and good sharing of lead and rhythm.

So for some more visuals and fun scrolling through...

The end of 2009 and the commencement of 2010. [Port Dickson Nov '09 + January '10]

Salvaged speaker system of my grandpa's. Served me a while before I handed it back to my brother for further salvation as I leave home.

End.

Clear enough? That's my pyjamas anyway since toddler age. It's size XS to me now. Show muscles and.. can belly dance..erh.

so yeah...

83. Search in Silence

Personal

Depeche Mode says it, Enjoy the Silence.

Simon & Garfunkel explains in the Sound of Silence.

Anyways, they are repeated quotes.

So there goes my last day and nights for Penang. Where I was at home. So many times I find myself doing nothing. As in nothing beneficial and just wasting time at least to my own senses. Like putting off agendas and rather than accomplishing them I just procrastinate.
And I always forget about giving myself a rest. ahha.. finally, after badminton on Tuesday I decided to give up on any fun activities. My mood's totally screwed. My heart sank. My muscles crying for some stationary comfortable oxygenated air. So, I contacted my brathers and a seester to announce my ppk-ing.

I went for silence after that.
Yer can say, I look moody. More like sleepy actually. My aim for my last day was to rest as "effectively"... Went out with my brother. Drop mum. Breakfast. Lorong Kulit. In between them were sleeps. And then treated myself with scrumptious, succulent, luscious, waliaueh blablabla KFC Zinger Tower X-Meal. Makan puas-puas dan kuat-kuat. Played a few missions of Ace Combat Zero. Did amazing dogfighting manoeuvres. Easy mode...so enemies are quite easily shot down.

At night after dinner was the consequence of last minute packing...it's normal. So the effective rest taken was put to energize myself to stand till pass midnight. Damn myself again...for having so much to pack and bring down to my rented house...especially moving new items. Still not all I have a household shopping list when I reach the jungle-forsaken-abode.

*

So there. I think I have typed too much to express my silence.

There's actually a lot of tension and pressure in myself when I stayed quiet. Lots of things running through my head. Trying to clear up my thoughts which bring me down. Thinking. Resolving. Searching.

And to Hooi, YW, Jonathan, KY and Jon thank you all for the company and fun activities together. To the others whom I met along the way and the invitations to join more fun activities, "merci beau coup".

Sepang says, "welcome back student".
Nilai says, "welcome back sucker".
I say, "cb-iah"/"cb-llar"-ala-TheHooiMAN

Song for a quiet company: Joe Satriani - Searching