77. Bucket Psyche

Personal/Ideals

Delayed the demo weeks already... At first, I thought the lucky double 7 post would be just a personal update. As soon I clicked on the New Post, I thought of one decision. It shall be a start to uploading my own personal demos and recordings. Which means I am going to embark on a new work. Yeah, already in my mind. But lack of convenience-excused-time has been crippling the juices.

A simple method for improvement. You readers/musicians/music-enthusiasts/lovers may leave comments and give feedbacks on them. And we can learn together. This is a way other than jamming with fellow players. By far, I'd had done simple jammings a couple of times but they do not provide efficient learning because I hadn't been too serious. Plus distractions and all. Remember, the work for passion.

Musicians from all over everywhere on Earth (may include Satch cos I suspect he came from the space..heh) have said well enough about getting together and play is certainly a great way to improve. Learning never ends right..

So, I am trying to find more friends and acquaintances to come together to teach and learn. Teaching is also good, up to where ever level you could. Sharing is caring too hehe.. Well, I'm not so good at doing videos like millions in youtube and I'm somewhat lazy to get an account so I'm doing audio only for now. If time and convenience is appears vast I will put an effort in doing shots of cam-focus-playing. Otherwise, you'd just see me appearing with other players such as YW and Hooi in the future. A target is put, play with Kelvyn Yeang one day as he'd invited for countless times already.cool.

Practice makes ~"perfect"~. But I didn't practise effectively though. Alright, without further ado (fuhh..learnt new english word usage..) I hereby upload my cover on Buckethead - Wondering. A very simple in fact super simple song. Just to kickstart this new adventure.
~My demo is in the filefactory, hidden. Simply click NEXT song until you see it.

Note: Only the dynamics and notes are hit according to the song but without the Bucket's effects and backgrounds. I have kinda modified the song towards the ending. And forgive me, this demo lacks synchronization and is rhythmically out a little so I practically did it by feel.

Cos' playing with the original song as a backing track is a little inconvenient and I would mess up because the song is kinda feely and swaying, I easily get carried away. You could think the off-sync as some sort of delay/echo effects hah. This explains why the metronome is vital for amateur musicians.

The recording is made by line-in from the output-headphone of my amp. It is consist of 2 tracks basically..er..actually 3. The 3rd is an add-on in the 3rd section of the song. The breakdown:
1. The full playing with a little added gain for extra volume and fuzziness.
2. Clean channel with only the lead notes (which goes out of sync quite most of the time)
3. Add-on to track 2.
...erh after its completion only I realised, how bad the synchronization is. Cutting, time-shifting and alignment of tracks have been done to improve "audibility". Particularly only the 3rd section I feel sounds good till the ending. I will do a better one next time, or call a jam-in of this song. Better live sync.

This song was uploaded by Hooi in his blog before. I wonder, you should be eager to try out this song too. So simple and yet nice to play and listen to. For some of you guys could just use their ears to get nail this song down. Happy music-ing.

Well, I plan when the 777th post comes, I will post an imba blistering superspeed shredding with sweep picking and string skipping..someday...hah

Now, for the personal..haha. [Outdated]

1st week of 3rd semester. Mum's birthday. I forgot. Until dad sent an sms. wouh. Kill mum again heh. Did a push jogging and run one evening. That was a great spontaneous joining my friend for an exercise as I just got back from class......

...[Updated]
So there you go new songs for a different season, mood and flow of life. I have 3 referral songs this time. Alice In Chains by Hooi. Rhapsody by Sharqawi and Kamen Rider song by my brother.

Wokei, classmate friend had brought his Ibanez electric down here, from Perak. So it's time to "keep on rockin' in the free world". It's really not very free anymore now, workload and hectic schedule have been in the way. And will last until retirement day.

So many sidetracks. Distractions especially activities which consumed much time and healthy lifestyle..(like dota) had eaten substantial portions of free time meant for improvement (any kind except distraction forms) or rest.

And spending time building up firm friendship among classmates is great. It could be having break time together with meals and drinks, read stuffs and share opinions in the library, or sharing a pack of cigarettes with many. Of course the mentioned are other than working in a team during assignments or practicals. The latest being, joining in a futsal game which they regularly host. Around RM5 per hour only, and I get to kick futsal (like football) with classmates. And I scored a goal using my left leg after winning back the ball from the opponent. These extra moments are delightful as I do not get anymore "compulsory" activities which are organized for classes and students to get together like we all used to in secondary school.

Great, health and fitness can be improved. Jogging. Running. Sprinting. Futsal. Football (my co-curricular activity). oh yeah baby, Sharqawi's F50 and Predator boots..here I come.

So, I thought I'm inhaling new fresh air only to realise that I abandoned this blog for almost 2 months. Never mind that. New sets of beliefs, principles and philosophical approach and motives shall set in. Every changes with beginnings and endings also welcome motivating seasons. So again here I am, to continue to live.


~Recording made possible by:
-Squier Tele
-Marshall amp
-Ibanez cable
-wires/jacks/adaptors
-Altec Lansing headphones
-plenty of holidays here and there
-turning down of dota games
-Ben teaching me a resonance technique to determine match tuning
-Audacity program (thanks to Musicman1066 and Ah Hooi for introducing)

51. The Next Seasonal Tide

Personal/Friends & Family

Hello again, the January of the year 2009. The beginning of a new year, in fact the very first week. It is also the season in the year which many farewells take place. In certain way because it's usually the time when studies start so people either leave for further studies or to continue their semesters. Looks like a fresh kickstart with smiles and serenity brought forward from the previous year. May the joy finds it way in everyone's heart.

As for me, I will make my move back to the jungle(by the time you read this, I am already there). If you haven't know I brand my place of study jungle. But this photo wouldn't make you think so. Who wants a free ride(in the dream)?

[My first photo with an aircraft. Jonathan took this photo for me]

Good luck to Ye-Wheen in continuing his A-levels for his final 6 months. Go on, get a M.D blues-style. Good luck to Cheng Yee too, at Sunway...know what I duno wat course u doing oso...so BAD of me..island people basically. And to the rest, either still at holidays or going back already or starting on a new journey I wish you HAPPY STUDYING and best wishes in you endeavours.

Oh, for Hooi and Khang Yang. Work your ass off for STPM! Just make sure when I meet you guys again, don't look like some study geek or lose some patches of hair already. To Jon, I am waiting for your big paycheck in the near future. Your turn to treat me REAL big.

So here are some photos for entertainment purpose while I could serve.

ahh..my new partner. For the time being, I am going on a solo hiatus.

[dismantling to check out the innards, that neck space does allow me to fix a humbucker heh]

[Marshall amplifier..WOW..hahah..it's so good. This unit is very simple. So easy to use.]

[This matters so much...it's a Joe Satriani product ok! Planet Waves strap]

And yeah, thanks to Hooi for bending my string like 4 notes?higher and snapped it. But new set of Ernie Ball Medium Slinky equipped its way.woohoo

The splinter that got into my palm. It's minuscule. But to take it out, it's just nice, stinging, morbid and what can say, it's for the love of pain. YW got nice amount of flesh scraped off just recently, in the swimming pool. It's just so good to see blood huh. Dig em'.

[ahha..so small only...but imagine la using a needle to dig it out, to open a hole. Astounding.]

[the piece of splinter...]

My other accounts of pain were stepping onto broken glass pieces, stapling fingertip, burning fingertip using the car cigarette lighter, hitting and getting guitar fretboard splinter into between fingernail and tip and bleed. They are accidents of course and I never(for now) would want to hurt myself like this. Also getting aircraft wiring poked into between nail and tip. So what's your style? haha Be more careful.

And my first new phone. That's Guns N' Roses. Great Buckethead guitars in it haha

So, I will be back in Penang again for the Chinese New Year. Get sweatin'. Till next time. oh yeah..gota return KY his swimming trunk which he left that day...huh so gay.
My top 2 alien-based inspirations are from Joe Satriani and Velvet Revolver materials.
~JS - Surfin' with the Alien [and his affinity for alien stuffs]
~VR-Loving the Alien

For some non-personal/stress-talk write-ups, I haven't got any good materials. No inspiration though. There's nothing much for me to "preach" about haha. Basically just plain fresh season in the year. I just have nothing at all in my head, opinions or whatsoever except a still-born draft which I need to find a suitable time to write and post.

Time oooh...this year will test my time management to the critical level. Failure of doing so spells disappointment and will only reflect my "you-still-duwan-to-change" attitude. But at least I should improve a bit on giving proper time allowances and not procrastinating on and on again. This does apply to everyone, I reckon especially with this new era and generation of youngsters having new toys and "great" lifestyle. So, back to you people..enjoy life.

43. The Limits of The Dead + Sayonara Asrama

Personal/Ideals

Be afraid...the darkness that appears in the daylight. This is serious holy shit that is produced by Slipknot as the latest album after 4 years. All Hope Is Gone. Totally (sic). I recommend it to those who are (sic) of the environment and the life being in control by all The MAN. If you are a Maggot, we revel.

The "nano"gram, the 9-edged instead of 5-sided pentagram. It's imprinted translucent on the front and back of the booklet. Only Maggots could see it haah

There, the origin where my email got its name. #4 James Root, who uses a Telecaster >.<
"Whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you... stranger."
~The Joker[Dark Knight]


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Goodbye hostel..(you suck! and your price went up)

hah ahh....no more cat shits strewn wherever favourable. No more holding breaths while doing laundry. It's like Slipknot saying "breathing in sulfur", suffocating.

The closet

The roof (for spiderman acts when any neighbour gets stranded when they left the room locked without having the key)

The shower pipe

The door (whose door knob has its own anti-theft system-pseudolock stuck-tightness)

The room (censored for privacy discreet-Jonathan's side)

Even though there's many downsides of staying in hostel I still love the community and close proximity we have. You could just meet your friends and neighbour-student-mates anytime anywhere anyhow..nevermind, let go. hah

My desktop background! This particular face in the wallpaper seems to resemble a bit a girl(young lady) I met a few times at different places, a stranger but if I'm sane it's the same person(..my fetish for resemblance..). And I know she's staying in the apartment which I am going to move in to next year. Not too cute-not too pretty-just so sweeeet. "She, may be the face I can't forget"...ahh.

[the pink make it looks like a girl's]

It's in my handphone wallpaper too... ya noe, I don't get to "wash eyes" at my place so this is my kind of amusement haah.

So, 1 week to go...a week of final exam. Then Penang will experience a bang that has never occur before. An electrifying experience with more than 2 fretboards transmitting superstrings of distortion concoction fluctuation satisfaction devastation. A Bigger Bang, that's it. Get ready Hooi, YW, Joshua and Andrew (and maybe Jonathan XD).

["The limits of the dead" is a phrase from the song Psychosocial. "breathing in sulfur" is from Sulfur. "She, may...." is from Elvis Costello - She. "A Bigger Bang" is a title from The Rolling Stones]

35. The Strings

Personal

I got the touch of Fender and Gibson. Ah...

A Telecaster. And a Zakk Wylde Les Paul Special.

They are sooooooooooooooooooooo good. No one can imagine how excited and happy I was. Ya know, having get to touch, play, abuse and experience electric guitars. And these aren't any ordinary electrics. Thanks to BeatStop of Yamaha in Midvalley and the great guy working there.

They are just, great. At price from RM3000 of course. That really boosted my aspiration and hopes...ahha and you know what, I tried it plugged to a 200W Laney amplifier. Superb and magnificent.

ah.....I totally owned...myself. Especially having just borrowed a steel-string from a neighbour. ARGHHHHHHHH HOOI!!! YOU TRIGGERED MY IMPATIENCE! Nevermind, end of the year..end of the year. We will do G3. I guarantee you.

34. Break Stuff

Personal/Friends & Family

scheduled posting...by the time this post is posted I am in the class doing one of my midterm exam...

O k..holidays' over. What a life I experienced back in Penang, the island. Yeah, heavy endless rain and news of flood in the city, sad.. but yet, such fun..ain't it fun?

I drove a lot...until a point where my right leg becomes lazy to step for acceleration. So I went on a 40km/h city cruising, annoyed drivers please overtake me haha But no, most of the time I've been speeding, cutting, overtaking and no, I don't tailgate like Jonathan (haha!). It's fun and actually dangerous, think of your loved ones and the consequences when you think of attempting any speed stunts on the road. I always do, and I think that I get to reach them faster and see them sooner =D no la, that's not the point. My point is, THERE HAD BEEN SO MANY ROAD ACCIDENTS HAPPENING. They always happen but that was one day where I witnessed like more than 2 crash sites in a day. Scary. And ya, I inter-knock my sidemirror with someone else's. Not good.

So, it's been fun and pleasurable doing all the activities with friends back there. Meeting and visiting people, cheer up and cast a rain of smiles. Especially visiting my former babysitter with guavas for her...I hope I'd make her happy. The proud thing is I went alone and had a sit and get to eat her homemade jelly "chai-ean" and watching the kids play. They all have grown up so much...who I used to help babysit 8 years ago. fyi my babysitter, she used to babysit our Malaysia's Squash player Nicol David too..proud eh..

And for a reunion with friends. Pretty much joyful. We did like countless of CC outings..bowling games and pool. erh..and consecutive Fettes Park western food. Oh, tau lau juak for a farewell for Shen How. Our future doctor, who just went to Russia for his medicine studies. 6 years-ordeal urh.. As I know, my form 5 class monitor Jeffrey and another guy Edwin are the people who are pursuing medicine. Cool. All the best to them.

This. People who are not in Penang anymore... From right, that's Jonathan, Daniel, X and Andrew. Daniel's in Nottingham and Andrew in Singapore...Nottingham in Semenyih...hehe

[ah...cool growing up photo, thanks to Andrew for the capture and Daniel for sending. btw that's my belt protruded not anything else hah]

Spent most of the time with Ah Hooi la...lonely rocker. DAMN...RM250 for the whole electric guitar package from Andrew. Yeah, never mind I get to at least touch and feel the power before pressing my balls for the next near 3 months. Wait for me!!! I shall come back and complete the harmonizing. And I had the best so far in my experience nasi kandar woohoo...at RM7.50; pahaayam kicap, telur puyuh and daging kambing ketul...fux I will dearly miss it.

Aiya...don't get to spend more time with this buddy la, Mr. Jon...he's darn occupied...never mind haha as long as everybody is happy..

Did shoppings....got 2 new jerseys, sports tops which are so comfortable hopefully they will serve me well in sports. A replacement for my broken tumbler bottle. Got my favourite windbreaker from my aunt yay. And most importantly new sets of underwear...YEARGH! haha

That should summarize a bit or so on the things I did back at home sweet home...it's fun except for the part I have to rush(still slacking) for my homework. At home, I'm really the part-time slacker I once was...eat, play guitar, air drum while listening to music, then sleep and repeat. Or sleep, computer, chat, eat and repeat. Not productive. Only hiking and walk rounds with Hooi sum up the hard work I had. and yeah, new additions of music into my laptop playlist. Jonathan should be fully equipped with games too! There goes the studying motivation...oh yeah, vodka and chocolates from friends from abroad. Hopefully alcohol and cigarettes don't make up a part of me in future...kuatkan iman!

OH YA! Forgotten! Khang Yang's birthday! hahaha We went to celebrate for him. Birthday cake and KFC, and a pair of white school shoes which he need too. 18 years old people....I'm gonna join them soon woohoo...condom sales will shoot up too soon.

[Song title thievery from Limpbizkit - Break Stuff]

Back to jungle life, dudes and babes. Take care and cheers. All the best people =D

This is a crazy shit...A7X - Bat Country TOC Live LBC

33. The Rain Revelation 2 + Taggo 2

Personal

I dedicate the song Avenged Sevenfold - I Won't See You Tonight pt.1 to all the sad and depressed people..I am not hoping that your situations will worsen but it's just a song..sometimes you gotta move on and let go of certain things(appropriately). Especially not holding on to something that is not doing any good right now. Just walk up and reach for better days[Goo Goo Dolls inspiration]. And I'm enjoying very much the war torn songs by A7X like M.I.A and Gunslinger..if you know/identify any more similar songs by them do recommend to me. Goodbye, I'll be away from island for another 2 months plus and I'll be BACK IN BLACK[AC/DC]!

thanks YW for this video... Hope you people would enjoy it


Endless rain endless rain endless rain endless rain endless rain but I'm not listening to the song by X-Japan..lazy...

oh, another song to add..Stone Sour - Zzyxd rd. especially with this line, "I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go..".

Songs to reflect the opening of the new path:
Velvet Revolver - The Last Fight
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Tuesday's Gone
X-Japan - Endless Rain
Atreyu - Becoming The Bull
Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World[originally David Bowie]
Dir En Grey - Conceived Sorrow
...fux ....
and ultimately Avenged Sevenfold - M.I.A ....like many others who post lyrics..my turn.

"Fight for honor, fight for your life
Pray to God that our side is right
Although we won I still may lose, until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears, grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories won't let you cry, unless I don't return tonight"
~M.I.A, Avenged Sevenfold 2005

...and another part of the song was already in my sidebar.

2 weeks ago, I was enlightened, now I'm showered with rain of strength but with scars of life (but on the contrary, I'm feeling very tired now. Mentally or physical...duno..body's feeling a bit slow maybe because I drove so much endlessly rounding the island and weird enough, I knocked someone's side mirror and mine got retracted by force..nah small deal not even a scratch). Boohoo...it's all due to the people, rain, music and the guitar. 3 more months or rather 2 months and 3 weeks I will rise!!! I will storm the best of both worlds by electric. hah

The year 2009 will mark the rebirth of the star as I declared Big Bang(s) this year....self-indulgence crap.

Hooi and Ye-Wheen, await me... hopefully for RM500+RM400 I shall join in the harmonizing barrage of shreds. Abusing my finger tips actually prepare me for the tough precision repair in the aircrafts. 10 rounds in Botanical Gardens shall wait too...I will run the runway more often. Annual Sports Day 2009 also shall see another attempt by the OFA new challenger of 2008(lame enough it's me). muahah so much for the resolutions... the idea of having 20 guitarists harmonizing on stage for a tribute...could be for Joe or Clapton....and YW, you have inspired me to go back to my blues roots..

and I'm going back to the jungle soon...precisely 3 more days. Assignments/Exams/Practicals...huh

I can't believe it, I've chosen a path that doesn't bring me back home so often any more...especially if I get to fly next time, hotels and chicks are going to be my life =.=

Let me do this...TAG HOMEWORK tagged by granddaughter LJP my body is tired but my fingers are still stronggg. Here goes the lame tag..
01] Real name: Jared Teoh C*** J** (sorry la I'm very secretive)
02] Nickname: ***rot(fux..exposed just to be sporting)..bo sporting liao muahah
03] Married: Not yet
04] Zodiac Sign: Libra
05] Gender: Male
06] Age: 17 (legal for sex in some 2 weeks time)
07] High School: Penang Free School
08] College: Nil (uni yes woohoo.Universiti Kuala Lumpur Malaysian Institute of Aviation Technology
09] Height: around 162cm
10] Weight: Almost 50kg
11] Do you like yourself: Yes
12] Piercings: Not yet
13] Right or left: Both (in future)
14] Are you a freak : When someone thinks so
15] Hair: Fluffy/straight
16] Skin: Macho light-brown
17] Allergic: Dust, cat shit and rotten food leftovers and sudden change of climate
18] What are you doing now: Shaking my leg while doing this tag thing
19] What will you doing 1hour later: Should be dreaming
20] What will you doing 10 years later: Busy with career

THE FAMILY
21] Live with mother/father/parents: Parents in Island, room mate in Jungle
22] Siblings(included you): Two
23] Eldest: Brother
24] Youngest: Me
25] Love/hate your family: Love

THE LOVE -------[the dumbest part of the tag-kickass]
26] You found your another half: what half?
27] If yes, who is he/she: my another half
28] If no, who you want he/she to be: someone who respects and loves life
29] Time(s) you in relationship: Nil.
30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Mr. Woo Kok Ho
31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Mr. Woo Kok Ho, the cool teacher
32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Not sure.
33] What was/were the wrong you had done: Not sure.
34] Ever argue with your other half: Not sure.
35] You with your other half since: what half la...if it's my body then since I was born
36] Are you straight/Lesbo: Should be still straight...I can't be lesbo anyway
37] Reasons you love your other half: If it's my body then because it's mine
38] You and your other half in which stage: Teenager stage
39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: Mr. Woo Kok Ho is my friend's Maths teacher
40] Ever think of marry he/she: who?

THE FRIENDS
41] Your first best friend: My dick
42] Your first enemy: Others' dicks
43] The friend you love the most(1only): My phallus
44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): His phallus
45] Your most beautiful girl friend: She will go vain la
46] Your most handsome boy friend: They will think I'm gay la..
47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Unfriendly to me/cocky/disrespectful/too cute
48] The kind of boy you hate the most: Cocky/unfriendly/disrespectful/maybe too handsome
49] You fall in love with your close friend before: how does it feel to be falling in love?
50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: malei...
51] If your friend backstabbing you: Disrespect him/her
52] If your friend betray you: Confront and discuss then reconcile or disrespect
53] If your friend woo your lover: Mr. Woo Kok Ho is my once school mate's dad
54] If your friend fall in love with you: That should be the way isn't it? Good la
55] If you fall in love with your best friend: I already love my dick

THE STUDIES
56] Are you a good student: Damn yes
57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: 95% so far. The worst was in Form 5(50%)
58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: My mum
59] Always late to school/college: Yes to school. Sometimes in uni..
60] Your class: 1-Aero-1
61] You love your seniors: Love? I had some crushes in high school..
62] Senior who you love the most: .....love.....
63] Your classmates good/bad: Mostly good
64] Excellent result classmate: Should be Jonathan
65] Laziest classmate: Not sure
66] Smart people: A handful
67] Stupid people: Tsk. A handful
68] Good looking people: A handful
69] Ugly people: aiya...dun say people ugly la...they are just not so good if you compare
70] Funny people: A handful including lecturers
71] Cute people: None...but by comparison my class monitor la..but I'm still not gay
72] Bad people: A handful
73] Honest people: Not sure
74] Acting people: Not sure
75] You are what kind of people: Enjoys looking for girls

THE PREFER
76] Lip or eyes: Ass
77] Hugs or kisses: Sex...ok ok Hug la
78] Shorter or taller: Both ok..
79] hesitant or spontaneous: Don't really care
80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Don't really care
81] Listener or talker: Don't really care
82] Romantic or rich: Don't really care
83] Good husband or Good Father: ???

THE FUTURE
84] Age to get marry: 32 (nice number heh)
85] Numbers of kid(s): I plan to adopt, maybe 2
86] Career: In aviation or music
87] Salary: Damned but depends on the state of economy
88] Retirement age: When I'm tired and happy or when I'm invited to do music by a friend
89] Properties value: hmm...
90] Wishes: Make people happy and learn to love the others. Make people worship me.

That's all I hope it helps you to know a bit or so about me if you'd like to. Freak thing..fux(thanks YW for the word)

12. A Trip to Hell & Void

Stress-talk/Ideals/Personal

Greetings, here is a post came straight from my dream. No source of inspiration but only source of stress, horror and joy. I uploaded therewith new songs which I hope you will leave my page on for some time to listen to them. No, I do not earn money from you staying any longer here or any frequent visits.

And...wth, Scott Weiland left Velvet Revolver. I haven't even got the latest Libertad album yet... it's sad and in another way maybe shedding some light, they could just find somebody more concrete in the vocals. Taking up Sebastian Bach may relive Guns N' Roses' style huh. Buckcherry vocalist? Here is a link to the news: http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1584599/20080401/velvet_revolver.jhtml. Anyway, why were vocalists always the main issue when band disbands, someone left the band or someone is fired. The same kind of thing happened to Guns N' Roses and Nightwish(can read the fire letter here: http://www.brokenteeth.com/snitz/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=270 but LimpBizkit is a little different, Wes who was the guitarist left himself but already returned.

A Feat. I finished a game. Samurai Legend Musashi. My gameplay time is 38 hours. My brother did it 21 hours. So you know not a skilful gamer I am. Embarked on a new game, Tom Clancy's Ghost Recon: Advanced Warfighter. Sucks a bit on PS2 because of its control-like Counter Strike-I would do very good if playing it on a computer with mouse. I played the game for 2 hours non-stop and developed headache and some sort of nauseous feeling. Ok, some say it's vomit-inducing to watch Cloverfield so I guess this has the same cause. The camera keeps moving up, down, left, right, strafe left, right, shoot, being shot, demo, being demo and ordering a partner around, helping out the reconnaissance and engage on a special tactic combat. At the end of a mission, a report will be given on how many killed, how many killed stealthily how accurate my shooting is and thus awarding points.

On one night before he was tricked into clicking a porn website link by a friend, Mr. Woon Wei Tong a.k.a Old Man, my former form 5 Cekal assistant class monitor a.k.a the monitor gave me a youtube link to a 25 minutes long video of Pangea Day. Inspiring, yes I like global peace messages even though I am all-talk-no-cock peace activist. So, I prepared a draft for a post on Pangea. Not ready.

Content Warning: Read on only if you are not perfectly sane or not having the perspective of life in the greatest and most positive majority would think in some ways proven by surveys. Writings ahead may cause emotional disturbances and may mentally stick some bad perception of me onto or the minority involved. Read at your own risk. I beg you just read it for leisure.

Part I
SO, I'll get to the intended post title point. Hell to dream world means nightmare. I dedicate this to my brain. Nightmares. Do you have nightmares? Do you wake up from a nightmare like in the TV-wake up gasping for 21% air content of oxygen and cold sweating? Or do you wake up dead? Nobody knows about wake up dead huh.. I wouldn't like it if you come telling me how it feels like waking up dead unless you're a successful resurrection(not undead). Or actually, have you been to hell and back? Nobody has ever come back to Mother Earth to tell the experience in hell(don't count medium's god conversation in trance). So I give a fresh definition of hell, in a nightmare. A nightmare can be defined as a bad dream or a bad experience. We always view hell as fiery with devils whipping(why is the fire element portrayed in hell?). And sometimes going through a tough time can make you say, "It's hell being in a relationship with her". So the term hell here is something real negative in most perspectives or grueling or scary. Alright, straight to the world of dreams and nightmare a.k.a hell.

I once read a malay folklore about not washing the feet before sleeping will induce nightmare. For my case, I don't know... maybe I forgot to brush my teeth or just a tiny food particle still stuck in a tiny crevice. Even just 10 minutes will have me dreaming of something whether it's good or bad, there was once I dreamt of talking to my crush in my 20 minutes nap. I usually wake up sweating because of the Malaysia climate and weather.

And what are nightmares trying to tell us? Our fears. Our nemesis, I'd say. Let's take for an example, you used to like to scope a girl so in a "nightmare" you would be caught for scoping girls. Dreams are our subconscious lives. What we want, what we don't what or what happens, what happened and what's going to happen. So dreams deal with our sleeping conscience. We could slip too, that's what usually happens when you fall in a dream, you ended up falling from bed or kicking your leg or make a sudden jerking movement in a midst of your sleep. In Hokkien, we call it, "pa toh longkang". I always have it when I sleep in the car. I heard from people saying according to their own theory or some scientific fact, usually falling from the sky or drowning in dreams are result of the body lapsing into a state of rest where it does not feel so much anymore on the bed. So, imagine your nerves tell you that you are lying straight floating with no support underneath you. You will in reflex action quickly struggle or go panic like drowning trying to reach for something. Get the idea? Falling from the sky, how nice. I've had jumping off building dreams quite a number of times. Landing means waking up from sleep for sure. I don't wake up dead, I just went to hell and back. haah

Let me just elaborate or briefly tell you what I had in a nightmare last week. I made a inference that my nightmare was caused by playing a first-person shooting game with horrible looking creature enemies and bloodshed, Serious Sam 2 with Jon and Hooi. And my Editorial Board juniors not doing well in their duties. Here, the outline of my hell: Ugly mutations of monkeys gone wild on our Earth. They can talk. They are result of uncontrolled interspecies mating spree. There is one species(I even remember the name given in my nightmare) called the Neighing Monkey. It has insect eyes, no mouth and make horse sounds plus they attack viciously on humans. Another type can talk and they practically live on my grandfather's rambutan tree. wth. Speaking and threatening me in my own home compound. Another scene was in a courthouse in a a big building. There, my EdBod juniors gave in to a hearing for some case. I was so f* furious on why they just walk away like that cause the whole team to lose. Outside the building you have that kind of Cloverfield monster's attacking environment. Then, I went back to my house and saw my crush and her friend in my keyboard room doing their homework. wth. I have countless dreams of having her in my house so no surprise. That just explains my longing for her.

[The Scream by artist Edvard Munch]

The whole thing explains my eccentricity?? in dreaming. No, brainsick maybe.. or demented. Normal case, a sick person will tell you he's ok but in reality maybe he's not.

Part II

That's for what happened and what happens. What about what is going to happen? Is it still based on what we experience in life? I mean, we predict in life? Or being clairvoyant. Or omen. I would say omen. I have something which I finally want to share in public. Maybe(hopefully) if you have such encounter you would feel not lonely and might want to share with me, which I also think it's plausible... you guys are not as "crazy" as me. I have these scary nerve-wrecking omen telling dreams. And, it is so true that I fear I dream of that omen and because it signifies death. I'm sorry I am writing on deaths now. You know Harry Potter, the black dog symbol signifies death. Yeah, it's the exact same thing in my nightmares and dreams. No, it can't be resolved to watching too much cartoons, movies or read too much fantasy books. It's so hell f* coincidental. Maybe I dreamt of that thing but I didn't receive any news it may just had happened to other people other place not related to me.

This happens in 2004. A series of events chained and foretold in a world of fantasy. But ended in a disturbing and unpleasant horridness. A trepidation worth not remembering. 1st encounter: I dreamt of this big rottweiler(dog) the size of an adult bear. It was chasing me and two other friends. In the end we gone our own separate ways so the creature couldn't get us all at once. I met my father and fled in the car. OK, back to reality. Next day, I received a phone call. My uncle passed away. Of course I didn't know of the link back then. And then found out that one friend who was in my dream too, broke his toes. Another friend, bought a mask. This connection is a little bit funny but I just take them into account so it would be more interesting and not just the gloom of my uncle's untimely death.

That was the first. Of course(again) every time after I had a dream of the black creature I don't go thinking myself the creeps of knowing that someone is going to die. I just got this conclusion after several brain "storming" and "digging" to connect the events. As I can remember, the omen came to me for the deaths of my great grand aunt(or is it grand aunt), stepgrandmother and....hopefully that's all... Basically, that's all about nightmares I would like to write on about.

Furthermore, a lot of my dreams actually foretell certain desire achievements. You know, I've always wanted to own an electric guitar and I always dreamt of my friends having them but never myself. Yeah, I still don't have one. I did actually dreamt of me playing one once, maybe it's not mine and hell, the guitar that appeared in my dream was exactly the guitar I drew on my exam question paper based on a real guitar. Cheers to dreams and nightmares. A toast to Morpheus, God of Dreams. I did a personality test somewhere in the net, and the result shows that I am more like Morpheus. So that's it, I'm a avid daydreamer after all...

XD

"I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die." says the Lord - John Chapter 11, Verse 25 - 26

I came across this excerpt in the newspaper and I find it amusing. I feel power and godly reading it. hah. There is a hidden meaning behind my words... so read between the lines.

I can prove that God exists almost everywhere or He can be anywhere.
1. When you enter a cubicle you saw the toilet unflushed with floating objects, you say "OMG, uwekk... wth broken flush."
2. When you walk your car and search for your keys you say "OMG, where's my keys?"
3. After you bathed at the public shower room you say, "Omg wth someone stole my clothes!"
4. As you look through the school exam questions you whisper, "oh god, I didn't study."
Whole lot more of everyday life incidents where you apply the term 'God' you will come across it. haha Isn't it true?

haah Just yesterday I forgot to bring my towel into the bathroom I have to resort to walking out naked and dripping wet. I didn't say OMG, I uttered a loud "SH*T". That's it. Cheers.

8. Inspiration

Ideals

With respect to Hooi's post on music.
What a serendipity... he posted on music then I got inspired to write something only to find out that Ye-Wheen wants to write about it too.

I am listening to Kevin Kern's Through The Arbor and Pastel Reflections from Hooi's blog. I recommend that you pay a weekly visit, at least to his blog to get jabs of different moods and styles of music using his music playing program. He will exhibit out-of-your-mind songs from time to time, surreal. This is a great way of enjoying music. Get different tastes from different people by sharing it through the net.

So, I will ramble on on the this title Inspiration. "Music. The best form of art, language, hobby that I have discovered in this word", quoted from Hooi. I would say music induces orgasm too. Especially sound barrier breaking guitar juicy solo. It's truly amazing how music evolves from 10000 BC to this very 2008 AD from Classical to Metal. Haah, let me write a little bit about that. You have Neo Classical if combine them huh, a really good one. In short, these two styles are still music. I don't care what the Mother Earth you want to brand Rock and Metal as noise. I think some modern mainstream pop songs are so much noisier than certain rock songs. But I do still respect you people who kinda put up with the Linkin Park "noise" I blasted through the speakers everyday a few years ago particularly, my family members who actually commended on some of the songs. See? Good music listeners have their say. No, not really good music but I mean music listeners who are good. In my opinion, noisy music is music which put all the technological synthesized from the studio digital audio mixing. There you have, modern mixing like the one you always hear in radio, salute to Limp Bizkit for critisizing radios. Like global crisis, combine acid rain and global warming. Yes, just like that, music, maybe, running out of notes or just plain dumb radio airing senseless music. Ok, I try not to criticise music too much, come on we music lovers should appreciate music right?

Well, yeah. Let us revel in the celebration for music evolution. Open up your mind, try not be over-sensitive and keep an ear on changes. I am sorry for the lala style, I just can't stand the overwhelming clonings of it. But never mind, we're all humans. Take for example, also thanks to Hooi who showed me this song, In My Life. It's a Beatles cover by Ozzy Osbourne. Hell yeah. A dark metal rockstar reproducing a timeless classic. Respect. I would love to see Mozart reincarnate playing Megadeth songs. No, not John Sebastian Bach with the song (Love Is) A Bitchslap [feat. Axl Rose] which I downloaded from Adelyn thinking that it's a Baroque piece. He's just the namesake hard rocker. SHARING MUSIC IS GOOD[thanks to Hooi, Ye-Wheen and Ade for sharing music. They are my top resources, not forgetting Torrentz] Mainstream or non-mainstream music, still music just segregated by the popular majority demand. I would love also to see Slipknot bombing the Grammy Awards stage. Maybe in the next 40 years we rock lovers will be an example of old men and women who headbang. We can't see much of that yet because music evolution is still under the test of time and soon new generations would show different interests. I ain't like hearing you rockers saying, "oh I am old already... should listen to slow songs". I want to see elders and white-haired wrinkled folks attending rock concerts.

So this is the problem, some music become well-known and some music obscure and unappreciated. Radio actually plays a vital part in spreading music. Playing the same old overrated songs just keep the independent scenes from being heard. But when a radio plays an entire full scale of local music or a a particular style, people don't appreciate and thus ostracizing that frequency. Another thing is the music stores, Tower Records(talking about Penang big stores) is alright, plenty of classic albums. But still, no Japanese Rock albums. In the Jap corner, I saw Rain(korean) and JJ Lin(chinese)... what is happening?

I have a problem now, stress of catching up with good music. Timeless, classical, modern or japanese... I am digging out old songs and at the same time coping with trying out new releases. Like Hooi said, will we have enough time to enjoy good music before the grave is dug for us? Yeah, so I am appreciating music, maybe in a different manner.

Music is a source of inspiration, obviously but maybe not to people who actually don't bother about music at all which I do believe they exist but come on, even the friend beside you who is yapping sounds like rapping and someone frying egg sounds like cymbals and keyboards . Music influences and leaves a pothole so you trip and fall only to aspire to wake up and reach for higher heights. And, music enjoying just gets better for me now. I don't know if it's because my itchy hands playing with the speaker equalizer boosting usually unheard melodies or did my brother change the sound card? Same old computer speakers which are almost 10 years old.

Spoiler to those who haven't watch the movie, Ironman. This movie is good or to say great is still an understatement, let's just put it as a commendable tour de force. Wait, not only the actions and story. The music. I am truly happy to watch a movie which plays rock songs, haha. The movie opens with Back In Black by AC/DC and ends with Ironman by Black Sabbath which are the songs I can recognize. Yes, there's a few song really good rock songs played through out the movie especially the one when Tony gets ready with the suit being fixed onto him.

Yeah, ya can see that I'm inclined towards classic rock/metal scenes but not-so-fortunately I was born after the 80s' revolutionizing into 90s' time so I am taking every effort(at least by downloading) to suck them into my soul as I still walk this Earth haah. Yes, Hooi I agree radio in the past plays awesome stuffs and whole lotta love for serious musicians who speak through their songs. A handful of new modern songs are good too la dun worry.

Let's put an end, the final. I end by saying, "For Those About To Rock, I salute you" but remember to persevere, for it's also a long way to the top. We rockers and want-to-bes(wannabes sound a bit offensive to me) are soldiers of the wasteland striving to be heard but you know what, I beg please don't go over-airing and over-publicizing good music in the radio. See what happened to Britney Spears. She used to inspire me. Christina Aguilera survived huh and hmm...what is happening to Hilary Duff. Nevertheless, I welcome you to listen to this, Rage Against The Machine - Renegades Of Funk, a cover song originally performed by Afrika Bambaataa & The Soul Sonic Force. Go get the lyrics to inspire you.

[Inspirations bled: Led Zeppelin - Ramble On, Dir En Grey - The Final, AC/CD - For Those About To Rock(We Salute You), AC/DC - It's A Long Way To The Top, Dragonforce - Soldiers Of The Wasteland, Led Zeppelin - Whole Lotta love]
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[Inspirations for this post: Bo Bice, Maroon 5, Galneryus, Ozzy Osbourne, Kevin Kern, Rage Against The Machine, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Marilyn Manson, Fort Minor, Daughtry, Disturbed, Apocalyptica, Moby, Neil Young, Lost Prophets, Slipknot, Steve Vai, Stratovarius, Slayer, Dave Mustaine, Nightwish, Ville Valo, Matt Sorum, Steve Tyler, some local Malaysian bands ringing in my head, Kelvyn Yeang, Iron Maiden, Slash, CM Jon, Ye-Wheen and last but not least Kang Chin Hooi]
"If you are 555 then I'm 666" ~Corey Taylor, Slipknot