92. Colours of Love

Ideals/Personal

This is again, love. Animal love. Inter-species love. Inter-color love. Definitely not your kind of love.
These animals do not have any faith. Nor any belief. At least they do not speak it out and brag about it like us humans. They do not come to us for refuge in need of a god. They just make good companies. I think I'm speaking of an example which is dogs. Others...they make good fried food or roasted.

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I actually really do not mind about colour and races at all. But you may see me hanging out only with a bunch of fair-skinned friends of Chinese ethnicity wherever. At least most of the time. Maybe there's some comfort. I am very sure of that which most of you people out there tend to stick to the group with similar tones. I know it's a very ignorant thing as pointed out by a foreigner friend who commented in Facebook.

Then I beg to differ for my part. I may be hypocritical at my choices of answers. But here I am to point it out the things I look for when joining activities and becoming friends. Or at least people who are worth to mix around with without discriminating superficial characteristics.

Who the hell cares..I mean I don't care, really. Of where you come from or what kind of family background. Just don't bring bombs and don't push drugs to me.

Well, let's start from day one of life. First, I was born and raised in Penang. Obviously, you can see more fair-skinned Chinese descendants around. But national statistics show the population number otherwise. Never mind that. And growing up in the vicinity with more Chinese friends and neighbours it's not unusual to mix around more with Chinese people especially in school. But come on, f* this. You cannot force a nation to deliberately cultivate 1M*sia by..what?..you wana see every group of people walking around having at least 1 Chinese, 1 Malay and 1 Indian?
Let it be natural. All the while it has been natural. Nevertheless it's a result of what colonialism had done to our country in the past. But past is not to be taken as blame. Learn.

So, in my schooling years I had never choose friends by skin. I have many kinds of friends. Malay or Indian. They are still people. Why do I only have that few friends from those races. It's because they are that few in my place. You don't expect me to dig and search for non-Chinese friends so I practise equality. Of friendship.

Now that I'm in MIAT, I can tell you I'm studying in a place of an opposite population number of schoolmates to what I had before in MIAT. What now, you want me to befriend and mix with the whole school to show that I am not racist? Jonathan is the only Chinese in my class. And yes the others are friends nevertheless.

I want to point out the similarity in the friends that I have by comparing now and then (Free School). Let's say I have 5 friends whom I mix around with in the old days - 4 Chinese 1 Indian. Let's compare with now with the same total of mixing - 4 Malay 1 Chinese. So what the hell.

Let me also point this out on why do I tend to only stick to certain groups especially when they are Chinese people in forming a project group, staying together or just plain mixing. This is the part where I seek "comfort" in joining people. The comfort that is being termed ignorant from outside. I would really call this human tendencies. To achieve an equilibrium of satisfaction both to the heart and mind.

1. It's easy. I know the person's capability so it's easier to work together.
2. We're close and old friends.
3. Communication - English or Hokkien. Seriously haha. See, I tend to mix with people who regularly/tend to speak the English language fluently/poorly. And Hokkien. But there's a lot of lalas who speak hokkien in Penang I can't help it (out of topic).
4. Culture and Practices. This aspect covers a huge area. I am only going to point out some of the subconscious sub-aspects. Food - Halal/Non-Halal. And it's in tandem with respect even if someone says it's ok. Then I guess prayers is not really a problem because I didn't experience it but I heard of it as one. And what not that you may be thinking of by growing up in a Chinese family. You hear all sorts of things about other people.
5. Mind block.
6. Oh yeah this is for in M*sia in religion matters. This is a latent issue. Especially on marriages. Not about the food or dogs.

So you can blame human tendencies and let the politicians be the scapegoats. Other than that, why do we all have to discriminate one another. I know, this is already a very hard to treat situation already in our country. Many aspects and events were involved in the conception of such mentality. It's the war of the people and land. Modernly termed, business/money matters. One leads to another, they are not really independent. Refusal to change. Fear of losing. Strong and faithful in protecting rights. The will to save the heritage. Selfishness is easily just the factual cause.

Fundamental. Humans have settled and have been segregated into many different regions on Earth. From there, humans do changes and advance. To conquer. To win. To prosper. To live and be "happy". Meaning, to achieve goals and become satisfied in relation to their expectations.

That is a digress into the elements which are dated B.C. hah


Back to the topic of me being not racist.

I don't have to actually fight to say that I am not racist. That is just up to the way people see, judge and brand me. If I have 10 Chinese friends and 1 Malay friend so I'm racist then so be it the person likes to see people with numbers. If he sees that I have 1 Chinese friend and 10 Malay friends and thinks that I am stupid and betraying my race then he is really shallow and someone who I think is the real racist in my opinion. Et cetera.

There is really no point in seeing the different colours of the people in making decisions other than in the pointed out isolated cases.

When you're playing games or making plans, you look for people with the appropriate skills and attitude. In any sports I don't look for to choose particularly who I want to play with. It is just general that I want to play with people who are in a similar level of skills and fitness so I feel comfortable. ah this is a bit weird but it's ok..it is something to do with choosing people.

I fail in finding out how and why did I even bring this topic up. The photos of the plush toys gave out so many thoughts.

Here it is on love, human tendency appears again in love choices. I believe they are options and preferences. Take for example Chinese parents would advise their children not to marry black people. It's just weird. I believe it's just choices. One may think "wah so black I don't want". Yes, that's a choice. Not any racism. This does not apply though to people who really objects on interracial marriages. I believe it's human tendency to seek for comfort.

It's easy to fall in love. Physique. Face. Tonal characteristics. Personality. Behaviour. Thought. Creativity. Intelligence. So many aspects in gaining love. Note the first 3 points I write are actually the most common things people first look at when looking for mates. Basically, they mean looks. I forgot to add one more. Wealth, in terms of money matters. It's a commercialised world after all.

I think I quite have lost them the points I want to write about. But I believe again, I write enough for now. Boredom lingers starting from the very first sentence.
See, the dolphin has eaten the koala's head off already. Told you not to leave cute things behind...

And...

[DOG - GOD] ~ "funny" reversal ahha. can get condemned. but are both loving and caring existences.

91. Foot to Your Ball

Personal

Well, let's see.

In need of maintenance.

Something for the World Cup football season. My amateur start-ups haha. Economical and simple.

The boots. It's a Topper. Model is Brazil..should be.

Nike T90 Classic keeper's gloves. No, not kitchen mitts.

Ah..something I wanted to get ever since my love for the football game was really conceived in year 2002. Then I get it 7 years later. At discounted price. With the colour I'd been eyeing ever since. And ever since, I didn't grow any much taller to be an efficient goalkeeper. A well-respected position. Supposedly incredible in reflexes and agility.

And this is the latest in the family. Mercurial Veer. Caps earned in Georgetown, Sepang and nilai.

This is actually my 4th football purchased. First one is red. It was bought like 10 years ago and it bears the emblem of Mexico football club...yeah..they just beat France 0-2. 2nd one in black, came 1 or 2 years after that. It was under Jon's care when he claimed his dog has caused the ball to rupture and rendered unserviceable. I didn't get to say goodbye. And yeah Jon, you're still keeping my Real Madrid Siemens Mobile jersey.wooo

Lazy to take them photos of the balls. 3rd ball in gold, is an imitation design (only the looks not the construction) of the Teamgeist of World Cup 2006 Germany official matchball.

Hmm..have been getting Nike products already. I'd always been against Nike products because they are too simple and they cost so much. Yer know..just a tick. But recently they have a lot of designs that are both simple and elegantly great.

I set a new target on a Nike sweatshirt. Termed combatant, with Rooney blazing in the promotional poster. Never mind. I might wana get it for my own birthday present haha.

Say, humans are easily materialistic. I'm easily one. As simple as this, I see it I like it I get it if I can afford it. Less research. Just wraps the heart in comfort. Then of course think of the usage.

Yer see I like sports a lot. Especially football. I adore and respect the sport. I like the gameplay and how the players are trained to play with the ball. Strategy playing of course is not my cup of coffee but it's also highly commendable. Well as for me physically I just like to kick it and see how it takes on flight. Of course teamplay is definitely very fascinating.

Kick it. Bend it some other day.

90. This is Love

Personal

But not your kind of love.

Marsupial love haha. I'm actually very fond of collecting and displaying them plush toys. Especially these adorable wombats and koala bear from Australia. My uncle who lives there bought all of them. The left one is at least 10 years old already. The right one is fresh. It just came to my home last year after I "jokingly" requested my uncle to get one.

This one was taken by my brother with the arrow signs drawn in Paint.


I like arranging them in awkward ways. I avoided mating positions.

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89. Feel Good

Ideals/Personal

Woohoo. 2 years have passed and I reach 89 posts. Some I would say would have changed blog sites in 2 years at this rate. Nahh I'm too lazy to change a site. Not for any promotional purpose. Even for motivational reason I'm just too lazy. It doesn't matter.

I have to preach on this. On behalf of Stressm but not a Stressm post.

Feeling good is important in life.

It's natural. We keep striving to feel good. After feeling good you will feel bad and you will want to feel good again. That's what keep life moving. It's not wrong or bad when complacency strikes. Life is a constant cycle of events and they just ricochet away if it's not right.

But let's not leap into idleness.

(I want to admit that the Napoleon's newsletter and Thought of the Day are the few resources of lessons in life I learn from.)


Let's just take life as life. I don't mind or care if God intervenes or involves himself. I'm putting our human life as natural as a separate entity on Earth.

Look at humans. So much advancement since the cave dwellings. We are building bombs now.

Well, it's just us. We learn and suffer and at times we succeed. This is just the norm. Why can't we just live it. Yeah add spices here and all over to make all of us feel good. My point here is, "don't worry, be happy".

I understand that I might just drop dead the very next moment after finishing off this sentence. Then I didn't so I cherish. Until I'm struck then I will complain and cry in pain and vain. That's just life isn't it. No one prepares us to cope with all emotional situations.

The people in the war. The people in poverty. The people in the riches. The people affected by Earth's catastrophes. I appreciate all of them and I feel their existence. I just don't have any better media to convey it. I only have the thought in my mind. Well, cos I never go through their experiences.

I may sound hypocritical but then I'm just an average young man who likes to express and then sit back and relax. Unless there is a sudden emergency which I have to pack my valuable belongings and enter the mercenary.

So my point "Don't worry, be happy" strikes again. You have what you have now. You get what you want later. You enjoy what you have. You work for what you want. It all comes to an end. Accomplishing life. Be it, dissipate into thin air or join the Earth and soil after death we will identify it then.

But no one has ever come back to tell us about it. In my opinion, that is actually the best thing to do after death. Don't get attached with what we've left. I wonder what will happen if really someone comes back and tells us the story of afterlife. Curiosity kills the cat.

But I have an ambition of visiting life again after death. I would like to see what people do with my legacy. Or if there's anyone playing some sad solo over my coffin. Maybe my body will just be buried somewhere 6-feet-under that would be your great-grandchild's backyard garden.

And by luck I found this quote over the websites.

"Enthusiasm with error is more acceptable than indifference with perfection." — J. Dinneen

How would you define it?

For me, it comes to me in many aspects. It deals with some attitude some people have. It deals with passion. It deals with life.

Of course having said that I mean that I had some experiences with what I've come across. Especially through teenage, studies and upcoming career life. We will all encounter these and managed somehow to survive.

It's just life. You wana feel good, you do it your way. And make sure you do not mess with others. Breach of principles and selfishness are what get into someone's goodwill. er..hmm..I mean someone who tries to be nice when provoked will become not nice. It gets into his nerves and induces discomfort.

But then again, it's one's choice to be angered or emotionally affected. I am not going write any more here as I am touching the topic of "choice".

I think my long-windedness only means "I want to feel good". That should be one of everybody's goal everyday to be achieved. You don't want to go to bed every night or day(night-shift) with the thinking "I screwed" unless you just had sex.

Applying some Buddhism and teachings on life and death, that's not wholesome. We all want to die peacefull and wholesomely. Good karma. Have a nice day, humans.